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mmm i feel so dumb... we were getting our hair and makeup done today... my hair was lovely and the girl was so niceand sweet. i've never had my make up done before... and i needed a tweeze. so we waxed and tweezed my eyebrows and then went to makeup. she was the girl who did my nails the day before and she was so sweet yesterday. today she wasn't listening to me at all and my sister was yelling a lot and getting angry at me... the makeup girl was doing my eyes and kept telling me to close them and stay still and that i need to clean my pores and i'm this type of face and this shade of cover up and that i need to keep my eyes closed and i honestly felt really scared and just so out of my element. i tried so hard to just put up with it but i had to leave. i cried for like an hour. this is all just so hard on me. it's so strange. it just felt like they were trying to cover up me. i guess.... i never had any problems with make up or dressing up. but it was all just too much and so scary...... i know my sister is going to yell at me. the wedding is today and i just don't want to be anywhere near it.........