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i have this terrible guilt feeling in my chest. yet i know i haven't done anything wrong. i can remember feeling like this all the time growing up. my sister guilt trips me constantly. it really effects me. i wish that wasn't the case. i know for a fact that she's sick... but why does she always take things out on other people? i just wish i could fix her....
just being surrounded by negitivity like this just kills me. i know my mom is really trying to make things pleasent. she even paid for a manicure and petticure today for my sister and i and she just complained the whole time.
i used to think of myself as the black sheep of the family... now i realize i'm the normal child.
it's such a shock to come back home for a wedding to realize that everything growing up really wasn't my fault and that she really is crazy and my poor mother had to put up with all of this. and my sister just lieing to me all the time. it really kills me.... being out in utah with chris has been such a great experiance. just being surrounded by positivity and being outside every day is so great. i don't know how i could have lived without it.
this is just all such a shock.
just being surrounded by negitivity like this just kills me. i know my mom is really trying to make things pleasent. she even paid for a manicure and petticure today for my sister and i and she just complained the whole time.
i used to think of myself as the black sheep of the family... now i realize i'm the normal child.
it's such a shock to come back home for a wedding to realize that everything growing up really wasn't my fault and that she really is crazy and my poor mother had to put up with all of this. and my sister just lieing to me all the time. it really kills me.... being out in utah with chris has been such a great experiance. just being surrounded by positivity and being outside every day is so great. i don't know how i could have lived without it.
this is just all such a shock.