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Sick the past 2 days always blows. Had long conversation with the first lady of the highschool click recently married last year and of coarse when all your friends are tieing the knot and your left behind you get a bit bitter. I was an eagle scout in the boy scouts i kicked ass at tieing the knots. But as i look back i find that you know im tired of dealing with the opposite sex and i dont mind sayin it but you all are crazy or maybe its the fact that i'm the crazy one and you all are smart for stayin the hell away. i'm not sayin i want to jump into a husband wife situation i'm sayin i wouldn't mind the idea of actually haveing someone that gives a shit about me. and i wouldn't mind giving a shit about them maybe i'm wasting my time with it maybe i'm just the type of guy that needs to dissapear from any females life cause i'm not good enough for them i guess i jump into trying to help when i should let people figure things out for themselves. it would save me the trouble and hurt of dealin and careing when jack is payed back in return a simple thank you for your help while i've been in the rut would be all i would like. but you know half the time it must be because i'm so good at makeing it seem like they figure it out all by themselves that they dont think i had anypart in it at all. look if i make the attempt to talk to you or want to talk to you more then a minute or to it must mean that i care enough so why dont i get that back in return? now there are a choice few that do take the time to see how i am doing and i thank you for that but in my eyes mind and all that shit i feel like i should just say fuck it and be the stone cold person i know i am emotions dont need them and rarley unless i care enough, show them to anyone once again lucky if you see them from me. anyway i'm tired and dont feel like writing any more so fuck it. c-ya around i'm done with wasting my time cause in the end i'm done finishing last. ~GT~