but i need you, my love..

[gerger]

i need you in my life.
i need you back with me.
i love you and you love me.
once again i have fucked up.
only this time it was bigger.
i need you to love me.
i need you to tell me you love me.
i am sorry.
cant you understand that i messed up?
cant you understand that i am sorry?
cant you forgive me and forget about it?
i am sorry.
i fucked up, i know.
i screwed around big time.
i will never forgive myself.
i am sitting waiting for time to pass, like everyone says
time will heal.
im sick of waiting. i hate time.
i want to hurt the outside bc my inside is ripping me apart.
i miss you.
i have never loved or missed someone as much as i love and miss you.
you mean the world to me.
you are my life.
you are my everything.
i am sorry.
i fucked up.
please.
you are my crutch.
you hold me up when i want to fall.
you stay by my side when everyone else falls behind.
you stay back with me when everyone else goes ahead.
i need you to catch me.
i need you to stay by my side.
i am falling.
i feel like i have hit rock bottom.
please pick me up.
please support me.
i feel like nothing matters anymore.
i feel like no one cares.
i know i need to move on.
i know i need to.
i cant.
i dont know how.
i love you with everything in me.
i love you with everything in the world.
i know i have to move on.
i know its what i must do.
be there to help me move.
be there to help me get up and move away from you.
please be there for me.
i will never stop loving you.
i will never forget about you.
i have never felt so loved by anyone in my life.
"dont it always seem to go that you dont know what you got until its gone?"
i dont know what to do without you always there.
i will attempt to move on.
i will pretend i have.
just know i will never.
just know you will always be in my head.
just know you have made the biggest impact on my life in so many ways.