what an terribly [amazing] feeling.

[gerger]

as i sit here listening to "our" song, it makes me sad to think how perfect it was.
i knew i should of realized it was way too good to be true.
i warned myself not to fall for you,
i told myself that i would never,
i did.
i feel for you.
yes it has come back to bite me in my ass.
i know it has.
the sad part is i want you again.
i want us to work.
i want us to be together again.
you lied to me.
you gave me shit.
i know i deserve better.
i know i am worth more.
i need you though.
i cant get you out of my head, and this time you are not supposed to be there.

yeah i do hate you for lying to me.
yeah i do hate you for leading me on.
yeah i do hate you for being beautiful.
yeah i do hate you.
i have to.

please come back to me.
i need you in my life.
i need to talk to you.
i need someone that i look forward to seeing when i wake up.

guys like you have only been in my dreams.
when my dreams become reality, i guess i have to realize something has gone wrong.
you dream of dreams because they are not reality.

for me to fall for you was ridiculous.
for me to want to fall for you was just stupid.
for me to still want to fall for you is the worst.

for you to tell me you fell for me was ridiculous.
for you to tell me you want to fall for me was just stupid.
for you to tell me you are still falling for me is the worst you can say.

what you did is not something that i am going to blame myself for.
not this time.
this is not my fault.
i know it is not.
it is your wrong doing.
you fucked up this time.
for once i am certain i didnt fuck up.

wow what a good feeling that is.