man, i just......

[gerb2007]

WTF. u know wat everyone, i just wish everyone would just listen to me and hear me out instead of the things i do always having to be wrong and lame, and my opinions being always the wrong ones. Let me clear things up for u guys. i dont talk to people to get their attention or to make people feel sry for me. and i do ask other people about their life and everything. and they say its all good and i go along with the convo and if they say its not good then i say do u wanna talk about it and i give them my advice so i dont just fucking care about myself i care about other people. i have helped so many people this year with their problems that i forgot to focus on myself for a while and now when i try to focus on myself things get fucked up and i constantly have to fix them, then i get yelled at by people for being selfish and wanting people to feel sry for me, when all i want is to be happy, then i try to be happy, and when things are going good something bad happens. And in case u guys r wondering i only use my journal to get out my anger and frustration. i have nothing to say on my good days, cause i dont use the journal for that. so people think i am a depressed whiney ass. i mean that is the kinda stuff that depresses me. i write one of my entries for myself in order to make my nesxt day better, then someone reads it and thinks im a freakin depressed person, then they like dont talk to me, and avoid me, and i dont know what the heck is going on, then i get even more depressed and i ask people about wats going on and i ask them for help, not for attention or to be sry for me, but just to help me understand wats going on, then they think i am selfish and here i am having a really bad day

P.S. thank u for giving me ur opinions on my last journal and thank u to those who were nice about it, and hear is wat i have to say to those who weren’t. LOOK UP AT THE ENTRY!!!!!