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im so sick of it all. i did it and i love him so much. he said baby dont u know im fallin for you...isnt that a good thing? i was like yeah i guess....and i dont wanna get so caught up in him but he is so hard to resist and i cant help myself. i told him how can u fall for me? u found out u loved jennifer in 2 years and u fell in love with amanda in a year...and u say u love me and ur falling for me and u have only known me for maybe 8 or 9 months...no its not true. its so hard for me because i think of him all the time and he thinks i dont love him... i love him to much to tell him. im so sick of this pain and i dont know how to fix it....i go to my bestfriends house with the hopes that he will be there and i can see him...but it always fails. im using my friend to get to him..if she knew that we had this thing goin on she would never talk to me and that will be the end of everything. i wish i could make it all go away im hurting and i dont know how to tell him because i love him to much to say leave me alone. then on top of it all he talks to this gurl (i guess) on his myspace and i just dont know what to do. im falling to hard for him and i cant quit. he has no clue what im going through and how bad it feels... he has a life and why would he be in mine? im trapped and we cant spend anytime together and its just sooo hard. i cant tell anyone because they might tell. im so upset