Can I die yet?
Well...here is an update of my life
The good part is that I upgraded my PC...so I got that much going for me.
Now for the bad stuff....
Today the basement flooded..and I nearly lost my PC...and then my $100 mouse just up and stopped working.
Now for the less recent but worse part.
My fiance and I had been at it for a long while...She distanced herself to the point to where I didn't get a hug for like 4 months. Baiscally she was doubting why we were still together. I told her that if she couldn't put her heart into it I needed to know so I could find somebody else. I have nothing left to give. I moved out of my house to be with her to make it easier on her. I sunk all of my extra money into paying her debt and getting her things, completely ignoring myself. I felt backed into a corner with nowhere to go, nothing left to give. She finally decided that it would be best that we went our seperate ways. So now I am single....after about 10years or so...all that work and effort and sacrifice, just thrown away. What complicates matters is that I still live with her and her family. I can't really move back home..because I have basically been kicked out...or so it feels. I don't feel welcome lets put it that way. I don't have a car, I am way too far in debt, and too many bills I have left unpaid. I really don't know what to do anymore. I almost have no more oompf left to carry on. So...now I have to find some way to get enough money to get a car, find a place to live, pay off my debt, and still keep enough money for supporting my son. What makes things worse is that I feel like I have been pulling all the weight in the relationship. I have spent most of the time picking up after her...holding her hand. I get nothing in return. Nothing but shit on and stabbed in the heart. So I think I am done now...getting a little too emo and well..lets just say that its heading a route of an end with no return.
The good part is that I upgraded my PC...so I got that much going for me.
Now for the bad stuff....
Today the basement flooded..and I nearly lost my PC...and then my $100 mouse just up and stopped working.
Now for the less recent but worse part.
My fiance and I had been at it for a long while...She distanced herself to the point to where I didn't get a hug for like 4 months. Baiscally she was doubting why we were still together. I told her that if she couldn't put her heart into it I needed to know so I could find somebody else. I have nothing left to give. I moved out of my house to be with her to make it easier on her. I sunk all of my extra money into paying her debt and getting her things, completely ignoring myself. I felt backed into a corner with nowhere to go, nothing left to give. She finally decided that it would be best that we went our seperate ways. So now I am single....after about 10years or so...all that work and effort and sacrifice, just thrown away. What complicates matters is that I still live with her and her family. I can't really move back home..because I have basically been kicked out...or so it feels. I don't feel welcome lets put it that way. I don't have a car, I am way too far in debt, and too many bills I have left unpaid. I really don't know what to do anymore. I almost have no more oompf left to carry on. So...now I have to find some way to get enough money to get a car, find a place to live, pay off my debt, and still keep enough money for supporting my son. What makes things worse is that I feel like I have been pulling all the weight in the relationship. I have spent most of the time picking up after her...holding her hand. I get nothing in return. Nothing but shit on and stabbed in the heart. So I think I am done now...getting a little too emo and well..lets just say that its heading a route of an end with no return.