More memage, will catch up on books later perhaps
10 things you wish you could say to ten different people right now:
1. Sorry I was weird at lunch. I wasn't really expecting you and forgot how to make proper conversation so I guess it might've been a little awkward for you. I was really glad to see you though and I miss when our lives actually intersected on a regular basis. You've been a great friend to me for such a long time and we should get lunch sometime and catch up. Also, I like your hair. :D
2. I love you very very very much and I miss the time we used to spend together. But the reason I don't talk to or spend time with you so much anymore is that I feel like you wish I were different; that I dressed, spoke, or behaved in a different/better way than I do. It makes me sad that I've tried to give you everything you want from me but I still feel like I'm doing something wrong because you seem to think there's something wrong with me. Do you really?
3. If I didn't know you were so good at putting up with people's dickery and demands for attention then I'd be surprised you put up with me and mine. ILU. I feel like there's always something to do when you're around and I get really bored and restless when you're not here. Also, I only wash dishes when nobody's watching. Like a ninja. [edit] GOD COME HOME ALREADY. I'M SPENDING WAY LONGER ON THIS MEME THAN I SHOULD.
4. I know it may not seem like it, but I do miss all the restaurant-hopping and hanging out we used to do. Sometimes I felt a little bit like half of a jaded married couple XD; especially when we were just sitting around at our respective computers, mostly ignoring each other. But in the end it was still loads of fun and I want to do it again sometime. Bickering online just isn't quite the same as bickering in person <3.
5. I wish I had you all to myself, you crazy social butterfly. If only so I count all the moments we were thinking the exact same really weird things at the exact same times. We should go on vacation together. It'd be a crazy good time.
6. I don't want to sound too demanding, but I miss just hanging out with you. All of us used to just chill a lot; talk and eat and random stuff like that. Nobody really seems to have time for it anymore. There's just too much going on in everyone's lives I guess. We really should set aside some Saturday at some point and do a DC trip again.
7. Your apartment is too small. You need to come visit us more...Then again, you'd only distract us like you do certain other people. I still love you though. It's almost gotten to a point where I can't go shopping without you. Someone needs to tell me what to buy! (And needs to provide me with certain...reading material).
8. Now that I really think about it, I realize that some of the best conversations I've had have been with you. I don't know why I never really thought about it. Maybe it's just been a really long time since I've had a good conversation. It's not the same though when you have to cram all that make-up socializing into brief visits back home though. We -really- need one of those outing things. These past eight listings have now convinced me.
9. I'm sorry you're feeling crappy these days. And I wish there was something I could do about it. I should probably tell you more often that I think you're amazing amazing and awesome. I think you're one of the most brilliant people I'Il ever know and I don't want you to feel under-appreciated. Love!
10. And now, we need to have a talk about interpreting signals. I would be less creeped-out if you hadn't gone to the trouble to look up my home address. And calling me three times a week didn't exactly help your case either. I don't want to seem like too much of a bitch but seriously, what translates as "No." for you? I know we were friends a long time ago, but seriously man, get a fucking clue. And GTFO.
09 things about yourself:
1. I burned myself on the oven grating on Friday. Now I have a lovely scar to show off. It'll probably be gone in a few weeks.
2. I have a veritable laundry list of social ineptitudes. Sue me.
3. Believe it or not, I like to write. This is made difficult by the fact that I have chronic case of writers' block. When I can break through it, I surprise myself. In the past four years, I've only managed to rid myself of it a few times and produced some 4-5 pages of writing. *sigh* 4-5 pages out of some 100 pages of trying.
4. Left-handed and ridiculously proud of it. I'm not entirely sure why. Anything that makes me feels special.
5. I often treat music like drugs. I need a good fix every now and then. I also have that annoying habit of listening to the same single song over and over for a few weeks until I build up a tolerance. Then I have to move on to something else. But later, I will go back, and someone's ears will bleed.
6. I recognize that I tend to be fascinated by the violent, the morbid, the creepy, and the tragic. Doesn't mean I'm going to dye my hair and go around with black eyeliner.
7. Cause my eyeliner is gold. And I like it.
8. Gray IS my favorite color. But I'll still tell you that it's purple.
08 ways to win your heart:
1. As a warning: don't boss me around or belittle me. Few people have that privilege. Try it, and I will cut you.
2. Be positive. I'm a terrible pessimist. I'm trying to work on it but I need someone to balance it out.
3. Humility. Hackles go up when I sense high levels of arrogance, real or simply perceived. It's a reflex. I can't help it, even with people I otherwise like.
4. Listen. Granted, I don't usually do a lot of talking when I first get to know people, but I will love you if you actually listen and respond to what I have to say.
5. Share. I'm not talking about lunch or mechanics notes. But I like it when people volunteer the interesting things that happened to them that day/week. I probably won't ask because I don't want to pry, but I like listening. And I appreciate it when someone wants to show me something weird/funny/interesting they found on the internet.
6. Push back. I don't like it when people let me walk all over them. It makes me feel weird. That's why meaningless bickering is fun.
7. Sense of humor. Who doesn't like one? Personally, I prefer self-deprecating wit.
8. Personal hygiene. If you have all of the above and are lacking this...you will still most likely lose.
07 things that cross your mind a lot:
1. When will Hollay get home D:?
2. Hmm. Maybe I should be studying...Nah.
3. God I love Matthew Bellamy.
4. I could really go for a bubble tea right now.
5. I really wish I didn't have writers' block
6. I wonder if this class is curved...
7. So hungry.
06 things you do before you fall asleep:
1. Try/fail to write.
2. Check email
3. Check Geekologie
4. Get hungry
5. Eat something random
6. Read Cracked
05 people who mean a lot:
I don't wanna pick favorites. People in general mean a lot to me.
04 things you're wearing right now:
1. Jeans
2. Long-sleeved shirt
3. socks
4. contacts
03 songs that you listen to often (currently):
1. Le Disko - Shiny Toy Guns
2. Closer - Nine Inch Nails
3. Supermassive Black Hole - Muse
(Can you tell I like my tech-rock these days? XD)
02 things you want to do before you die:
1. See Japan
2. Live in Seattle
01 confession:
I'm starting to feel very grim. I need to eat dinner.
EDIT: Totally forgot to cut. XD
1. Sorry I was weird at lunch. I wasn't really expecting you and forgot how to make proper conversation so I guess it might've been a little awkward for you. I was really glad to see you though and I miss when our lives actually intersected on a regular basis. You've been a great friend to me for such a long time and we should get lunch sometime and catch up. Also, I like your hair. :D
2. I love you very very very much and I miss the time we used to spend together. But the reason I don't talk to or spend time with you so much anymore is that I feel like you wish I were different; that I dressed, spoke, or behaved in a different/better way than I do. It makes me sad that I've tried to give you everything you want from me but I still feel like I'm doing something wrong because you seem to think there's something wrong with me. Do you really?
3. If I didn't know you were so good at putting up with people's dickery and demands for attention then I'd be surprised you put up with me and mine. ILU. I feel like there's always something to do when you're around and I get really bored and restless when you're not here. Also, I only wash dishes when nobody's watching. Like a ninja. [edit] GOD COME HOME ALREADY. I'M SPENDING WAY LONGER ON THIS MEME THAN I SHOULD.
4. I know it may not seem like it, but I do miss all the restaurant-hopping and hanging out we used to do. Sometimes I felt a little bit like half of a jaded married couple XD; especially when we were just sitting around at our respective computers, mostly ignoring each other. But in the end it was still loads of fun and I want to do it again sometime. Bickering online just isn't quite the same as bickering in person <3.
5. I wish I had you all to myself, you crazy social butterfly. If only so I count all the moments we were thinking the exact same really weird things at the exact same times. We should go on vacation together. It'd be a crazy good time.
6. I don't want to sound too demanding, but I miss just hanging out with you. All of us used to just chill a lot; talk and eat and random stuff like that. Nobody really seems to have time for it anymore. There's just too much going on in everyone's lives I guess. We really should set aside some Saturday at some point and do a DC trip again.
7. Your apartment is too small. You need to come visit us more...Then again, you'd only distract us like you do certain other people. I still love you though. It's almost gotten to a point where I can't go shopping without you. Someone needs to tell me what to buy! (And needs to provide me with certain...reading material).
8. Now that I really think about it, I realize that some of the best conversations I've had have been with you. I don't know why I never really thought about it. Maybe it's just been a really long time since I've had a good conversation. It's not the same though when you have to cram all that make-up socializing into brief visits back home though. We -really- need one of those outing things. These past eight listings have now convinced me.
9. I'm sorry you're feeling crappy these days. And I wish there was something I could do about it. I should probably tell you more often that I think you're amazing amazing and awesome. I think you're one of the most brilliant people I'Il ever know and I don't want you to feel under-appreciated. Love!
10. And now, we need to have a talk about interpreting signals. I would be less creeped-out if you hadn't gone to the trouble to look up my home address. And calling me three times a week didn't exactly help your case either. I don't want to seem like too much of a bitch but seriously, what translates as "No." for you? I know we were friends a long time ago, but seriously man, get a fucking clue. And GTFO.
09 things about yourself:
1. I burned myself on the oven grating on Friday. Now I have a lovely scar to show off. It'll probably be gone in a few weeks.
2. I have a veritable laundry list of social ineptitudes. Sue me.
3. Believe it or not, I like to write. This is made difficult by the fact that I have chronic case of writers' block. When I can break through it, I surprise myself. In the past four years, I've only managed to rid myself of it a few times and produced some 4-5 pages of writing. *sigh* 4-5 pages out of some 100 pages of trying.
4. Left-handed and ridiculously proud of it. I'm not entirely sure why. Anything that makes me feels special.
5. I often treat music like drugs. I need a good fix every now and then. I also have that annoying habit of listening to the same single song over and over for a few weeks until I build up a tolerance. Then I have to move on to something else. But later, I will go back, and someone's ears will bleed.
6. I recognize that I tend to be fascinated by the violent, the morbid, the creepy, and the tragic. Doesn't mean I'm going to dye my hair and go around with black eyeliner.
7. Cause my eyeliner is gold. And I like it.
8. Gray IS my favorite color. But I'll still tell you that it's purple.
08 ways to win your heart:
1. As a warning: don't boss me around or belittle me. Few people have that privilege. Try it, and I will cut you.
2. Be positive. I'm a terrible pessimist. I'm trying to work on it but I need someone to balance it out.
3. Humility. Hackles go up when I sense high levels of arrogance, real or simply perceived. It's a reflex. I can't help it, even with people I otherwise like.
4. Listen. Granted, I don't usually do a lot of talking when I first get to know people, but I will love you if you actually listen and respond to what I have to say.
5. Share. I'm not talking about lunch or mechanics notes. But I like it when people volunteer the interesting things that happened to them that day/week. I probably won't ask because I don't want to pry, but I like listening. And I appreciate it when someone wants to show me something weird/funny/interesting they found on the internet.
6. Push back. I don't like it when people let me walk all over them. It makes me feel weird. That's why meaningless bickering is fun.
7. Sense of humor. Who doesn't like one? Personally, I prefer self-deprecating wit.
8. Personal hygiene. If you have all of the above and are lacking this...you will still most likely lose.
07 things that cross your mind a lot:
1. When will Hollay get home D:?
2. Hmm. Maybe I should be studying...Nah.
3. God I love Matthew Bellamy.
4. I could really go for a bubble tea right now.
5. I really wish I didn't have writers' block
6. I wonder if this class is curved...
7. So hungry.
06 things you do before you fall asleep:
1. Try/fail to write.
2. Check email
3. Check Geekologie
4. Get hungry
5. Eat something random
6. Read Cracked
05 people who mean a lot:
I don't wanna pick favorites. People in general mean a lot to me.
04 things you're wearing right now:
1. Jeans
2. Long-sleeved shirt
3. socks
4. contacts
03 songs that you listen to often (currently):
1. Le Disko - Shiny Toy Guns
2. Closer - Nine Inch Nails
3. Supermassive Black Hole - Muse
(Can you tell I like my tech-rock these days? XD)
02 things you want to do before you die:
1. See Japan
2. Live in Seattle
01 confession:
I'm starting to feel very grim. I need to eat dinner.
EDIT: Totally forgot to cut. XD