Waiting on (a) Woman...
I've grown up a bit thanks to military school. It's taught me a whole lot about life and how to properly act. It has also led me not to put up with bullshit anymore. And that I don't like stupid or immature people. I simply can't deal with them. This, unfortunately, lessens the amount of females I have to choose from date-wise. I'm sorry, but a lot of them are really dumb or extremely immature about a lot of things. I'm not saying guys are much better. I'm saying I have high standards that I refuse to lower.
And that is starting to get really, REALLY annoying. I'm not going to go in depth about every single time a girl has only been into my physically for a night of fun, I'm not gonna go into each one that doesn't date me because of proximity, I'm not gonna go into each one that has chosen another guy that doesn't deserve her at all. I'm going to mention one girl.
Just one.
This girl is wonderful. Smart, mature, absolutely stunning in all aspects of the word. Great to be with. We'd make a great couple. She's told me that too. But it's never happened. She's always said a girl will be really lucky to have me. She's told me I'm the perfect boyfriend. Then we bring up us. Us, dating. And she pulls out the "we're too good of friends to date". It's like getting smacked in the face. It's heart wrenching.
And nowadays she mentions her dickhead boyfriend. Or the latest guy that's being an ass and pestering her. And she wonders if she can find a good guy. And I smile at her and agree, despite the fact that he's right in front of her. And I told her I'm fine with being friends. I guess I'm pretty good at lying. Don't get me wrong, I love hanging out with her, she's a great person. But the moment she leaves, the moment that door shuts, the feelings rush back in, and it hurts.
A lot of guys would kill to be me. I'm good at procuring one night stands. I don't mean to sound like an ass, but a lot of girls like to have a good time with me for a night and leave me. Most guys would like that. And it IS fun, believe me. But as the country artist put it "...but at the end of the day, I go home alone..."
And I don't want to. I want to go home and know I have a girl that's thinking about me the same way I'm thinking about her. I could. But every time, she walks out that door. She walks out the door and doesn't realize what she could have. I wish I could have her.
Yeah, well, wishes rarely come true for me. 3 years of fun random hook-ups, and not a single relationship. It's such a shame.
And it's a shame that she continues to walk out that door without me by her side.
I'm heading back to school. That should take my mind off things.
At least there's country music for this.
"Maybe someday..."
And that is starting to get really, REALLY annoying. I'm not going to go in depth about every single time a girl has only been into my physically for a night of fun, I'm not gonna go into each one that doesn't date me because of proximity, I'm not gonna go into each one that has chosen another guy that doesn't deserve her at all. I'm going to mention one girl.
Just one.
This girl is wonderful. Smart, mature, absolutely stunning in all aspects of the word. Great to be with. We'd make a great couple. She's told me that too. But it's never happened. She's always said a girl will be really lucky to have me. She's told me I'm the perfect boyfriend. Then we bring up us. Us, dating. And she pulls out the "we're too good of friends to date". It's like getting smacked in the face. It's heart wrenching.
And nowadays she mentions her dickhead boyfriend. Or the latest guy that's being an ass and pestering her. And she wonders if she can find a good guy. And I smile at her and agree, despite the fact that he's right in front of her. And I told her I'm fine with being friends. I guess I'm pretty good at lying. Don't get me wrong, I love hanging out with her, she's a great person. But the moment she leaves, the moment that door shuts, the feelings rush back in, and it hurts.
A lot of guys would kill to be me. I'm good at procuring one night stands. I don't mean to sound like an ass, but a lot of girls like to have a good time with me for a night and leave me. Most guys would like that. And it IS fun, believe me. But as the country artist put it "...but at the end of the day, I go home alone..."
And I don't want to. I want to go home and know I have a girl that's thinking about me the same way I'm thinking about her. I could. But every time, she walks out that door. She walks out the door and doesn't realize what she could have. I wish I could have her.
Yeah, well, wishes rarely come true for me. 3 years of fun random hook-ups, and not a single relationship. It's such a shame.
And it's a shame that she continues to walk out that door without me by her side.
I'm heading back to school. That should take my mind off things.
At least there's country music for this.
"Maybe someday..."