All or Nothing
That phrase pretty much sums up my psyche. I do or don't do. No gray areas, not much moderation, all out or dead stop. The start/stop switch is hair-triggered, and operated by the strangest things.....
If one area of my life gets skewed or out of balance, the whole comes to a screeching halt. Like an intricate pattern of dominoes, it all comes crashing down, and nothing works or gets done.
That's pretty much where I am at the moment (and have been for a couple of months, and will be for.....). There is one area that I can't wrestle into submission right this moment, so the rest ceases to function.
I will somehow struggle through to the other side, but for now the MO is last minute crisis management as the need arises. I hate these phases of life, especially when I have to smile and keep going as though I am not swimming in a tank of sharks.
Is it possible to be physically bi-polar without being mentally bi-polar??? That's what it feels like sometimes (assuming that I can imagine being bi-polar).
Thank you for listening. I needed to get that off my chest. I'll go back to punching sharks in the nose now.
(To those who may be concerned by this post: I'm really O.K. For the moment I am a control freak who has one lose end that is not under control. Makes me crazy!)
If one area of my life gets skewed or out of balance, the whole comes to a screeching halt. Like an intricate pattern of dominoes, it all comes crashing down, and nothing works or gets done.
That's pretty much where I am at the moment (and have been for a couple of months, and will be for.....). There is one area that I can't wrestle into submission right this moment, so the rest ceases to function.
I will somehow struggle through to the other side, but for now the MO is last minute crisis management as the need arises. I hate these phases of life, especially when I have to smile and keep going as though I am not swimming in a tank of sharks.
Is it possible to be physically bi-polar without being mentally bi-polar??? That's what it feels like sometimes (assuming that I can imagine being bi-polar).
Thank you for listening. I needed to get that off my chest. I'll go back to punching sharks in the nose now.
(To those who may be concerned by this post: I'm really O.K. For the moment I am a control freak who has one lose end that is not under control. Makes me crazy!)