ok so I am a follower....
hey everyone. Some of you think that I am cool. Some of you know better. Now you will all become aware of how normal I am because now I, like everyone else in the world, has a live journal. There are a couple reasons I am making this. The first is because I am board. The second is it seems that all of my friends have one. Third, I think that it would be intresting to be honest with everyone in the world about my feelings. The final (and probably the most real reason) is that I am really crappy at keeping in touch with people and I wanted to come up with a way in which everyone could know what I was going through without having to remember to call everyone. Yes, this is the brutal honest truth (see reason 3). Yeah so you now get to be privied to all of my deep dark secrets, strange rants, and daily musings. I wonder if anyone is going to actually read this... lol. So here I am it 6:34 and I am leaving in 10 minutes to go to a dance class with my mother and then a yoga class.
So i just got back from a week long silent meditation retreat. What did I do there? I sat for 45 minutes, then I walked for 45 minutes, sat for 45 minutes, walked for 45 minutes and repeated for the entire week with breaks only for eating meditation and for 2 hr long esctatic dovening/dancing session. I learned all about my unconsious and got to watch how my brain and emotions worked from somewhere else in my head. It was really amazing, but I still feel really high (I got back yesterday). all and all I good now and just really really really woozy and can't take too much stimulation from diffrent places at the same time, but my senses are all really sensative and I feel really really high. I am usually more coherent than this and I claim the retreat to explain my rambelling mind.
Oh on that note this journal is going to be written in a stream of conscious mode so you who care can actually learn how my brain works and I can not have to reread what I have written and sensor myself. So yeah. my mommy is calling me so I am gonna go. I will write again soon. Everyone please leave me messages so I can feel special and loved! I love you all. Oh y eah, I learned something else on my retreat. You are all G!d... thats it. Like everything in the world is G!d and we are just fooling ourselves if we don't see it. Yeah. So enjoy being G!d for a while, or at least be aware of it because its a cool feeling. Not that there was ever a point where you weren't G!d, but yeah. thats the idea behind the Shema. My mommy is glaring at me so I am actually gonna go because I need to put on shorts to dance in and I don't want to make her late. MAY YOU BE BLESSED and please read this often, it will help me actually write things in it.
So i just got back from a week long silent meditation retreat. What did I do there? I sat for 45 minutes, then I walked for 45 minutes, sat for 45 minutes, walked for 45 minutes and repeated for the entire week with breaks only for eating meditation and for 2 hr long esctatic dovening/dancing session. I learned all about my unconsious and got to watch how my brain and emotions worked from somewhere else in my head. It was really amazing, but I still feel really high (I got back yesterday). all and all I good now and just really really really woozy and can't take too much stimulation from diffrent places at the same time, but my senses are all really sensative and I feel really really high. I am usually more coherent than this and I claim the retreat to explain my rambelling mind.
Oh on that note this journal is going to be written in a stream of conscious mode so you who care can actually learn how my brain works and I can not have to reread what I have written and sensor myself. So yeah. my mommy is calling me so I am gonna go. I will write again soon. Everyone please leave me messages so I can feel special and loved! I love you all. Oh y eah, I learned something else on my retreat. You are all G!d... thats it. Like everything in the world is G!d and we are just fooling ourselves if we don't see it. Yeah. So enjoy being G!d for a while, or at least be aware of it because its a cool feeling. Not that there was ever a point where you weren't G!d, but yeah. thats the idea behind the Shema. My mommy is glaring at me so I am actually gonna go because I need to put on shorts to dance in and I don't want to make her late. MAY YOU BE BLESSED and please read this often, it will help me actually write things in it.