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The past few days have been a nightmare. Everything that I felt content with in my life is just going to shit. My father is making me feel guilty with wasting so much time in college. I started having problems with my car, and he bitches at me more. I came 3 days away from being evicted from my apartment because I had a late check, and I'm still hearing shit from him about it. I'm in debt for the first time in my life, because I splurged and took a trip to new york when I couldn't afford it. Just so a week later kirsten can decide to want to date other people. She tells me then a week after that that she doesn't want anyone else, and wants to stick it out with me through these two years she's going to be away. Then eventually she tells me she's been cheating on me after "getting back together" with me.
I didn't think I took it that hard, until she called me a couple days after telling me that. I couldn't say anything to her, and it just killed me. So now I'm sitting here wondering where to go with my life, and not being able to think of anything. The past three days have been nothing but sleeping->waking up going to work-> class->coming back to my room and sleeping. I don't have the urge to play any games to pass the time, it's almost like there's nothing to wait for, so i just sleep.
So sorry to any of my friends if I change or just spend too much time in my room, I'm sure I'll get over it. I just need some time to focus on what the fuck I want to do with my life, and get it sorted out. Anyway, I think I'm going to go back to sleep..I've always wanted to dream.
I didn't think I took it that hard, until she called me a couple days after telling me that. I couldn't say anything to her, and it just killed me. So now I'm sitting here wondering where to go with my life, and not being able to think of anything. The past three days have been nothing but sleeping->waking up going to work-> class->coming back to my room and sleeping. I don't have the urge to play any games to pass the time, it's almost like there's nothing to wait for, so i just sleep.
So sorry to any of my friends if I change or just spend too much time in my room, I'm sure I'll get over it. I just need some time to focus on what the fuck I want to do with my life, and get it sorted out. Anyway, I think I'm going to go back to sleep..I've always wanted to dream.