SUMMER ESCAPE part II
Title: SUMMER ESCAPE part II
Pairing: Ennis/Jack
Genre: AU One-shot
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: We know the drill.
Story summary: Jack ties Ennis up.
Dedication: delvalmom
A/N: Explanation for the dedication is underneath the cut!
Feedback: Its what I live for!
Throughout the duration of their summer job up in the mountains the cowboys continued their sexual escapades at discovering new and adventurous ways at pleasing one another. Jack often find himself taking the lead. It wasn’t because Jack was consciously trying to take on the dominated role, but more over the fact that Ennis had come to enjoy being on the receiving end. Ennis enjoyed having Jack play with him with all the bright, shining and interesting toys he had in his duffel bag. But in truth there were plenty of times in which Jack would take Ennis without using any of the toys.
Ennis was adopting the submissive role and much to his surprise he was loving every moment of it. He hungered for Jack’s strength and power. He indulged himself in the sexual thrill at being controlled and dominated by the more experienced cowboy. Both men could sense it and they couldn’t get enough of it.
But as much as they were able to express themselves with their bodies, neither was able to speak about the depth of feelings racing between them that went beyond sex. It was as if they were using the physicality of their lovemaking to express in passion the words they seem incapable at saying to one another. Out of fear, nervousness, uncertainty, rejection, obligation to others, or perhaps a combination of all those emotions, from one side to another, neither was able to drum up enough strength and courage to approach the subject that connected them to one another both body and soul.
The job naturally came to its conclusion and as they made the long journey down from the mountain high Eden they had discovered, no words were exchanged between them. Only heavy, silent hearts of sadness at knowing it was all coming to an end.
By the time they had made it back to Aguirre’s office, getting their summer pay from the old bastard, Jack could’ve kick himself for his cowardly behavior. In all his young life he had never been afraid to speak his mind freely. It was one of the things that often got him in serious trouble. But the benefits at being that forthright always outweighed the negative.
He knew deep in his heart that Ennis was the one for him and he couldn’t help but get the strong belief that Ennis felt the same about him. But Ennis was still an enigma in many ways. A mystery that will probably always be wrapped up in a riddle. However Jack knew there was more to this stalwart cowboy and he had seen it first hand.
But every time he tried to approach the subject, the thought of being rejected, scared Jack away. He was a strong man but the mere thought of Ennis turning him down would crush him and Jack knew he wouldn’t be able to survive it. Realizing, only too late, Ennis Del Mar had stolen his heart away from his chest and tucked it deep inside his own chest right along side his own heart. Jack was losing his heart and soul and apparently there was nothing he could do about it.
He was so lost in his thoughts Jack didn’t notice Ennis’ disappearance. When he finally did notice, Jack was suddenly paralyzed with fear. Surely Ennis wouldn’t have left without saying goodbye.
Quickly Jack started searching around the spare little town, looking high and low, among the small strip of stores lining up the main street of town. His stomach ached with butterflies and he overwhelmingly felt like a child who had lost his parent. It wasn’t a happy feeling and it frighten Jack something fierce.
He went back the bar he and Ennis first shared a drink, hoping that Ennis was perhaps there drowning himself in sorrow over their immediate separation. When Jack got there he couldn’t find Ennis anywhere. He asked the bartender if he had seen Ennis, describing his friend perfectly.
“Yup,” the bartender said in nonchalant tone never looking up at Jack as he continued with his work at stocking the bottles of beer behind the bar.
“Your friend mentioned if you stopped by to direct ya over to the post office. Said he’ll be there. It’s across the street.”
Like a bat out of hell Jack raced outta the bar and ran to the post office. Once inside it was easy for Jack to see Ennis. He was standing off in the corner at a counter with his back turned from Jack.
It was at that moment Jack realized he hadn’t taken a proper breath since Ennis’ disappearance. Overwhelmed he bent his upper body over and rested his hands upon his knees as he tried collecting himself in order to inhale more properly.
Regaining his composure and seeing the man that has become the world to him, a seething form of anger began washing over him. “Who the hell he think he is,” Jack thought to himself as his fury began to increase, “scaring the shit out of me like that, when he could have simply told me where he would be.”
As he approached Ennis he was fit to be tied.
“Ennis Del Mar,” Jack huffed, “What the fuck you’re doing running out on me without saying a word. You had me chasing all over town looking for ya!”
But Ennis didn’t say a word. In fact despite Jack’s loud words Ennis gave off the impression he wasn’t aware that Jack was there.
“Ennis are you listening to me?”
As if suddenly aware of his presence, Ennis slowly turned around and looked at Jack. He could see Jack’s hands were defiantly on his hips and by the expression on his face it was clear he was huffing mad.
“Oh,” Ennis said calmly, “there you are. Hi.”
“Yeah I’m here,” Jack said aiming for an argument. “And let me tell ya…”
But before Jack could finish, Ennis turned back around and continued what he was doing before Jack arrived.
“Jack do you know how to spell ‘appreciate’?”
“What?”
“’Appreciate’…do you know how to spell it?”
Frowning Jack didn’t know what the hell Ennis was talking about. He wanted to scold Ennis for leaving unexpectedly and making him think he had left him. But instead Ennis seemed more interested at whatever the hell he was currently doing. It took the wind out of Jack’s sail. Besides Ennis was here and he wasn’t leaving. Not yet anyway.
“Jack? ‘Appreciate.’ Do you know it or not?”
Pushing back his cowboy hat in order to scratch his head as he thought on it. “A-p-r…I don’t know,” Jack shrugged his shoulder finally giving up. “My spelling is just as bad as yours. Whadaya doing anyway?”
Walking up closer to Ennis, Jack looked over his friend’s shoulder and could see he was writing something on a piece of paper with a pencil. An address envelope was lying on the counter next to him.
“Who you’re writin’ to Ennis?”
Ennis turned around rather anxiously and stared at Jack with unsure eyes. He began biting on his thumb nail and Jack knew that was Ennis’ sign of nervousness at trying to put his words in proper thought before speaking. Jack knew best to simply wait it out until Ennis was ready.
“Well…it’s…um,” Ennis paused not quite sure what to say at next. But something inside him told him to just spit it out and get it on over with. So he sighed, took a big breath, and looked straight into Jack’s face.
“It’s like this. I’m writing this letter to my girl. Y’know the one I planning on marrying when I got back.”
Jack just nodded his head.
“Well anyway I’ve been thinking. What happened up there on the mountain…y’know between me and you…I kinda betrayed her…well…I mean…I guess that’s the word to use. I don‘t know. Anyway. I think it would be kinda wrong of me to marry her now. I mean she’s real sweet…and pretty…and nice like. Maybe I’m not the right man for her. I mean she probably could do a lot better. I’ll probably just hurt her in the end and she doesn’t deserve that. It ain’t her fault.”
Ennis paused and took another deep breath.
“That’s what I’ve been thinking. But…I don’t know. Maybe I’m just sounding stupid. I probably such just rip up this letter here and just go back and marry her. It may not be so bad. And I did promise her. Whadaya you think? Should I finish writing it or should I just go back and marry her?”
Jack knees had gone all rubbery listening to Ennis. His heart was pounding hard against his chest, his head was swirling, his forehead began sweating and his guts were suddenly tied in knots.
“Well…um,” Jack knew he had to be smart about it. One wrong word from him could be disastrous. Slow and easy…slow and easy he thought.
“Do ya love her?” Jack swallowed hard and closed his eyes scared to death at what the answer could be. He reopened them and looked at his friend. He could see Ennis was thinking hard on the question. The longer Ennis thought on it the more nervous Jack got.
“I guess I do,” Ennis said slowly, “but maybe not in the way a man should towards the woman he’s about to marry. I mean I should be pretty should about it, shouldn’t I?”
“Yeah I guess,” Jack was quick to catch himself. He can’t afford to show any uncertainty.
“I mean yeah…you should be sure. I mean you said it yourself. You guess you’re in love with her. You can’t guess on something this important. You have to know it. You have to be sure. And seeing how you don’t know, you shouldn’t marry her. I mean it wouldn’t be fair to her. I wouldn’t be right. I wouldn’t be…y’know…the right and proper then to do. I mean how could you marry her and not know if-if-if you don’t know if-if-if you don’t love her alright and proper like. I mean it wouldn‘t-wouldn’t be right.”
Jack was beginning to ramble and his speech was becoming rampant and he knew it but he couldn’t stop himself. His voice went up an octave or two and his body was becoming more animated as he continued talking at a faster clip. All he wanted was for Ennis to finish writing that damn letter, put it in the mailbox, and be done with that girl once and for all.
“Maybe she could help us finish writing the letter.”
Jack pointed over to the post lady who was standing behind the booth staring at him like some half craze jumping bean.
“Maybe she knows how to spell ‘appreciate’ or have a dictionary behind the booth.”
“So you’re saying this is the right thing to do,” Ennis asked him for assurance.
“Yeah…I mean,” Jack paused to recollect himself. “Yes Ennis. This is the right thing to do. In the long run you’d be doing her a great favor.” Not to mention for me too, Jack thought to himself, but it didn’t say it out loud. For the moment he kept that to himself.
“Okay if you think that’s right.” Ennis gave off a faint of a smile but it was enough for Jack to see it as he and Ennis finish writing the letter together.
With the letter in the mail the young cowboys left the post office and was walking side by side down the street heading towards Jack’s truck. They said nothing but on occasion their shoulders would brush up against one another, sometimes by accident, sometimes on purpose.
“Y’know Jack,” Ennis said breaking the silence between them, “you didn’t haveta add your summer salary in the letter. My salary was good enough.”
Jack just shrugged his shoulders. “It’s only fair I reckon. Besides I have enough money saved up.” The truth was Jack really needed that money but in his urgency to push Ennis along he volunteered it when Ennis began worrying if his own pay would be enough for the girl as some type of apology for not marrying her. But the deed was now done and even now Jack wasn’t sure what Ennis’ plans were now that he ended his engagement.
“But that was three hundred bucks. How ya gonna make it up?”
By now they were at Jack’s truck. Jack was at the driver’s door. He noticed Ennis walking towards and opening up the passenger door all natural like with no invitation or suggestion. Nothing was discuss, nothing was said between the two about Ennis joining up with him. It was done as if it was meant to be.
Jack bowed his head, covering his face with the brim of his hat, shielding his smile.
As both young cowboys hopped into the truck Jack starting up the engine and pulled out of Aguirre’s driveway, perhaps a little too fast then necessary. He didn‘t want Ennis to try and jump outta the truck if he decided to change his mind at the last minute.
“Well I know there’s work to be done on Old Man Thompson’s cattle ranch located about a hundred miles from my family’s ranch. It doesn’t pay as much but the money is good just the same and he’s always looking for strong workers.”
“That’s good.” Ennis nodded relaxing himself in the passenger seat looking out of the window. “With two of us working we should be able to make up that six hundred dollars lost in no time at all. After that‘s done we can decide where to go from there.”
“Sure enough friend,” Jack smile as he took the right turn on I-80 heading down the highway towards his new life with his heart and soul sitting right next to him.
Where it belongs.
-END-
Pairing: Ennis/Jack
Genre: AU One-shot
Rating: NC-17
Disclaimer: We know the drill.
Story summary: Jack ties Ennis up.
Dedication: delvalmom
A/N: Explanation for the dedication is underneath the cut!
Feedback: Its what I live for!
Throughout the duration of their summer job up in the mountains the cowboys continued their sexual escapades at discovering new and adventurous ways at pleasing one another. Jack often find himself taking the lead. It wasn’t because Jack was consciously trying to take on the dominated role, but more over the fact that Ennis had come to enjoy being on the receiving end. Ennis enjoyed having Jack play with him with all the bright, shining and interesting toys he had in his duffel bag. But in truth there were plenty of times in which Jack would take Ennis without using any of the toys.
Ennis was adopting the submissive role and much to his surprise he was loving every moment of it. He hungered for Jack’s strength and power. He indulged himself in the sexual thrill at being controlled and dominated by the more experienced cowboy. Both men could sense it and they couldn’t get enough of it.
But as much as they were able to express themselves with their bodies, neither was able to speak about the depth of feelings racing between them that went beyond sex. It was as if they were using the physicality of their lovemaking to express in passion the words they seem incapable at saying to one another. Out of fear, nervousness, uncertainty, rejection, obligation to others, or perhaps a combination of all those emotions, from one side to another, neither was able to drum up enough strength and courage to approach the subject that connected them to one another both body and soul.
The job naturally came to its conclusion and as they made the long journey down from the mountain high Eden they had discovered, no words were exchanged between them. Only heavy, silent hearts of sadness at knowing it was all coming to an end.
By the time they had made it back to Aguirre’s office, getting their summer pay from the old bastard, Jack could’ve kick himself for his cowardly behavior. In all his young life he had never been afraid to speak his mind freely. It was one of the things that often got him in serious trouble. But the benefits at being that forthright always outweighed the negative.
He knew deep in his heart that Ennis was the one for him and he couldn’t help but get the strong belief that Ennis felt the same about him. But Ennis was still an enigma in many ways. A mystery that will probably always be wrapped up in a riddle. However Jack knew there was more to this stalwart cowboy and he had seen it first hand.
But every time he tried to approach the subject, the thought of being rejected, scared Jack away. He was a strong man but the mere thought of Ennis turning him down would crush him and Jack knew he wouldn’t be able to survive it. Realizing, only too late, Ennis Del Mar had stolen his heart away from his chest and tucked it deep inside his own chest right along side his own heart. Jack was losing his heart and soul and apparently there was nothing he could do about it.
He was so lost in his thoughts Jack didn’t notice Ennis’ disappearance. When he finally did notice, Jack was suddenly paralyzed with fear. Surely Ennis wouldn’t have left without saying goodbye.
Quickly Jack started searching around the spare little town, looking high and low, among the small strip of stores lining up the main street of town. His stomach ached with butterflies and he overwhelmingly felt like a child who had lost his parent. It wasn’t a happy feeling and it frighten Jack something fierce.
He went back the bar he and Ennis first shared a drink, hoping that Ennis was perhaps there drowning himself in sorrow over their immediate separation. When Jack got there he couldn’t find Ennis anywhere. He asked the bartender if he had seen Ennis, describing his friend perfectly.
“Yup,” the bartender said in nonchalant tone never looking up at Jack as he continued with his work at stocking the bottles of beer behind the bar.
“Your friend mentioned if you stopped by to direct ya over to the post office. Said he’ll be there. It’s across the street.”
Like a bat out of hell Jack raced outta the bar and ran to the post office. Once inside it was easy for Jack to see Ennis. He was standing off in the corner at a counter with his back turned from Jack.
It was at that moment Jack realized he hadn’t taken a proper breath since Ennis’ disappearance. Overwhelmed he bent his upper body over and rested his hands upon his knees as he tried collecting himself in order to inhale more properly.
Regaining his composure and seeing the man that has become the world to him, a seething form of anger began washing over him. “Who the hell he think he is,” Jack thought to himself as his fury began to increase, “scaring the shit out of me like that, when he could have simply told me where he would be.”
As he approached Ennis he was fit to be tied.
“Ennis Del Mar,” Jack huffed, “What the fuck you’re doing running out on me without saying a word. You had me chasing all over town looking for ya!”
But Ennis didn’t say a word. In fact despite Jack’s loud words Ennis gave off the impression he wasn’t aware that Jack was there.
“Ennis are you listening to me?”
As if suddenly aware of his presence, Ennis slowly turned around and looked at Jack. He could see Jack’s hands were defiantly on his hips and by the expression on his face it was clear he was huffing mad.
“Oh,” Ennis said calmly, “there you are. Hi.”
“Yeah I’m here,” Jack said aiming for an argument. “And let me tell ya…”
But before Jack could finish, Ennis turned back around and continued what he was doing before Jack arrived.
“Jack do you know how to spell ‘appreciate’?”
“What?”
“’Appreciate’…do you know how to spell it?”
Frowning Jack didn’t know what the hell Ennis was talking about. He wanted to scold Ennis for leaving unexpectedly and making him think he had left him. But instead Ennis seemed more interested at whatever the hell he was currently doing. It took the wind out of Jack’s sail. Besides Ennis was here and he wasn’t leaving. Not yet anyway.
“Jack? ‘Appreciate.’ Do you know it or not?”
Pushing back his cowboy hat in order to scratch his head as he thought on it. “A-p-r…I don’t know,” Jack shrugged his shoulder finally giving up. “My spelling is just as bad as yours. Whadaya doing anyway?”
Walking up closer to Ennis, Jack looked over his friend’s shoulder and could see he was writing something on a piece of paper with a pencil. An address envelope was lying on the counter next to him.
“Who you’re writin’ to Ennis?”
Ennis turned around rather anxiously and stared at Jack with unsure eyes. He began biting on his thumb nail and Jack knew that was Ennis’ sign of nervousness at trying to put his words in proper thought before speaking. Jack knew best to simply wait it out until Ennis was ready.
“Well…it’s…um,” Ennis paused not quite sure what to say at next. But something inside him told him to just spit it out and get it on over with. So he sighed, took a big breath, and looked straight into Jack’s face.
“It’s like this. I’m writing this letter to my girl. Y’know the one I planning on marrying when I got back.”
Jack just nodded his head.
“Well anyway I’ve been thinking. What happened up there on the mountain…y’know between me and you…I kinda betrayed her…well…I mean…I guess that’s the word to use. I don‘t know. Anyway. I think it would be kinda wrong of me to marry her now. I mean she’s real sweet…and pretty…and nice like. Maybe I’m not the right man for her. I mean she probably could do a lot better. I’ll probably just hurt her in the end and she doesn’t deserve that. It ain’t her fault.”
Ennis paused and took another deep breath.
“That’s what I’ve been thinking. But…I don’t know. Maybe I’m just sounding stupid. I probably such just rip up this letter here and just go back and marry her. It may not be so bad. And I did promise her. Whadaya you think? Should I finish writing it or should I just go back and marry her?”
Jack knees had gone all rubbery listening to Ennis. His heart was pounding hard against his chest, his head was swirling, his forehead began sweating and his guts were suddenly tied in knots.
“Well…um,” Jack knew he had to be smart about it. One wrong word from him could be disastrous. Slow and easy…slow and easy he thought.
“Do ya love her?” Jack swallowed hard and closed his eyes scared to death at what the answer could be. He reopened them and looked at his friend. He could see Ennis was thinking hard on the question. The longer Ennis thought on it the more nervous Jack got.
“I guess I do,” Ennis said slowly, “but maybe not in the way a man should towards the woman he’s about to marry. I mean I should be pretty should about it, shouldn’t I?”
“Yeah I guess,” Jack was quick to catch himself. He can’t afford to show any uncertainty.
“I mean yeah…you should be sure. I mean you said it yourself. You guess you’re in love with her. You can’t guess on something this important. You have to know it. You have to be sure. And seeing how you don’t know, you shouldn’t marry her. I mean it wouldn’t be fair to her. I wouldn’t be right. I wouldn’t be…y’know…the right and proper then to do. I mean how could you marry her and not know if-if-if you don’t know if-if-if you don’t love her alright and proper like. I mean it wouldn‘t-wouldn’t be right.”
Jack was beginning to ramble and his speech was becoming rampant and he knew it but he couldn’t stop himself. His voice went up an octave or two and his body was becoming more animated as he continued talking at a faster clip. All he wanted was for Ennis to finish writing that damn letter, put it in the mailbox, and be done with that girl once and for all.
“Maybe she could help us finish writing the letter.”
Jack pointed over to the post lady who was standing behind the booth staring at him like some half craze jumping bean.
“Maybe she knows how to spell ‘appreciate’ or have a dictionary behind the booth.”
“So you’re saying this is the right thing to do,” Ennis asked him for assurance.
“Yeah…I mean,” Jack paused to recollect himself. “Yes Ennis. This is the right thing to do. In the long run you’d be doing her a great favor.” Not to mention for me too, Jack thought to himself, but it didn’t say it out loud. For the moment he kept that to himself.
“Okay if you think that’s right.” Ennis gave off a faint of a smile but it was enough for Jack to see it as he and Ennis finish writing the letter together.
With the letter in the mail the young cowboys left the post office and was walking side by side down the street heading towards Jack’s truck. They said nothing but on occasion their shoulders would brush up against one another, sometimes by accident, sometimes on purpose.
“Y’know Jack,” Ennis said breaking the silence between them, “you didn’t haveta add your summer salary in the letter. My salary was good enough.”
Jack just shrugged his shoulders. “It’s only fair I reckon. Besides I have enough money saved up.” The truth was Jack really needed that money but in his urgency to push Ennis along he volunteered it when Ennis began worrying if his own pay would be enough for the girl as some type of apology for not marrying her. But the deed was now done and even now Jack wasn’t sure what Ennis’ plans were now that he ended his engagement.
“But that was three hundred bucks. How ya gonna make it up?”
By now they were at Jack’s truck. Jack was at the driver’s door. He noticed Ennis walking towards and opening up the passenger door all natural like with no invitation or suggestion. Nothing was discuss, nothing was said between the two about Ennis joining up with him. It was done as if it was meant to be.
Jack bowed his head, covering his face with the brim of his hat, shielding his smile.
As both young cowboys hopped into the truck Jack starting up the engine and pulled out of Aguirre’s driveway, perhaps a little too fast then necessary. He didn‘t want Ennis to try and jump outta the truck if he decided to change his mind at the last minute.
“Well I know there’s work to be done on Old Man Thompson’s cattle ranch located about a hundred miles from my family’s ranch. It doesn’t pay as much but the money is good just the same and he’s always looking for strong workers.”
“That’s good.” Ennis nodded relaxing himself in the passenger seat looking out of the window. “With two of us working we should be able to make up that six hundred dollars lost in no time at all. After that‘s done we can decide where to go from there.”
“Sure enough friend,” Jack smile as he took the right turn on I-80 heading down the highway towards his new life with his heart and soul sitting right next to him.
Where it belongs.
-END-