oh wow.

[geometroblaster]

with each week, i learn how emotionally unstable i am. it's like i'm a moth that can't decide whether or not he wants to turn into a butterfly and live the rest of his life full grown. i do though, but sometimes i really just don't know how. progress is promising, but my promises are always half-assed. it's especially difficult to move on when self-confidence is never consistent. at times i'm positive, but most of the time i'm below negative. she's moving on full throttle and i'm still lost in the woods. why do i have to be such a hopeless romantic guy, not the guy who can just talk to a girl and see where it goes from there. time will tell, too bad i'm an impatient bastard. thank goodness i have the best surroundings in this whole damn world. with music, my family, and my friends, life will never be too bad to tolerate.

add this to the flurry of my confusing thoughts for these past 4 days.