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Fool fool fool
I'm such a coward.
Skipped class so I wouldn't be called to recite my poem. I've been doing this for ages -- I never seem to learn. Fancy, my classmates probably won't give a hoot if I sucked, I don't even think they'd notice. But then, I can't. I don't know why. I perform all the time but when it comes to poetry I can't manage. I remember this one time I was performing for Quill, it was this seemingly clever piece I wrote in Filipino. There were around 40 people and we were sitting in the dark. When I got to the middle I panicked -- Shit. Panget. -- I improvised, I changed everything because it sucked and it didn't end as well as it should have. I call it performance anxiety. I always want things to be perfect.
Fool
After four years I can't believe I'm still a coward.
I've never been workshopped. Not even once.
It's remarkable that they let me get away with that.
I'm such a coward.
Skipped class so I wouldn't be called to recite my poem. I've been doing this for ages -- I never seem to learn. Fancy, my classmates probably won't give a hoot if I sucked, I don't even think they'd notice. But then, I can't. I don't know why. I perform all the time but when it comes to poetry I can't manage. I remember this one time I was performing for Quill, it was this seemingly clever piece I wrote in Filipino. There were around 40 people and we were sitting in the dark. When I got to the middle I panicked -- Shit. Panget. -- I improvised, I changed everything because it sucked and it didn't end as well as it should have. I call it performance anxiety. I always want things to be perfect.
Fool
After four years I can't believe I'm still a coward.
I've never been workshopped. Not even once.
It's remarkable that they let me get away with that.