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Hey all,
So.. life is mental.. so very busy. Doesn't surprise you I guess (if you read the previous blogs!).
On that three week intense course that started on the 31st, I mentioned. It is so interesting! But my god is it intense, I have 23 lectures in a week and four days! Now have an essay to write by Tuesday and an exam on Wednesday! This may be the hardest thing ever if I want good grades! Anyways.. enough about work.. don't want to bore you even more!
To sum up my personal life right now:
I am currently laying in bed with earphones on and a relatively broken laptop playing a youtube playlist I just created with female love songs on it.. how sad is that?! It's Valentine's day in three days.. and I am single once again! It's so depressing.. I sometimes just think about someone I like and get that tingly feeling in my stomach.. is that love? I have no idea what it feels like.. I thought I did once and if it was love then it was such a long time ago.. I don't remember it.
Love life update:
The guy I mentioned previously.. well he is off the radar now.. completely.. I am SO GLAD I got over him.. I really didn't think I ever was. I kind of have two guys of interest at the moment. Both I shouldn't fancie and both are out of my league.. one def in looks, the other not so in looks.. more age. I no I shouldn't like an older man but I just can't bloody help it! It's very inappropriate! I'm hoping it will go away.. the other guy.. well he.. aww.. he is just not my type at all.. we are complete opposites but there is just something there, I just don't no. Maybe it's all in my head..? (Just like the Valentine's day Glee episode this week, when Kurt and Blaine had the whole - 'made it all up in my head' issue!). I have that issue I think.. I like wish, just wish, he will like me. I guess there is a universe out there where he is falling at my feet and saying how much he loves me.. but it's not this universe...
Valentine's day this year will be good though.. me and my lovely sweetpea (little H) (best mate from uni) are working hard on our essays and exams and then getting a takeaway..
Bet I'll get no cards this year.. AGAIN.. ...you never know... one of the guys may write one.. but I know they won't. Especially one, who DEF DOESN'T FANCIE ME, and the other probably doesn't. Lets name them for ease.. Man1 (old, never fancie me, completely inappropriate) and Man2 (my age, probably doesn't like me, slightly inappropriate). This is my chance out of 100 of getting them..
Man1 - 0.05%
Man2 - 1% (which is relatively high when you compare it to Man1! x20!)
What else? I guess my dream for the future isn't looking brilliant as I got 63% in one of my modules.. which I hope is the worst grade I get all year.. as I can't afford anything lower than that! I am so scared that the module I am doing now, I will get bad a grade cause its supposed to be the thing I am good at.. but we'll see. I will cry and cry if it is bad. I just wouldn't no what to do. Please, please, please wish me luck.. I have never wanted something more in my life but a good grade in this. I really should be going to bed now so I can get my beauty sleep to write that essay (which is 50% of that module!). Oh my.. I am so nervous.
I am so scared.
Please, please let things work out...
Love to all.. especially on this Valentine's day.. <3
Geogirl:)xx
So.. life is mental.. so very busy. Doesn't surprise you I guess (if you read the previous blogs!).
On that three week intense course that started on the 31st, I mentioned. It is so interesting! But my god is it intense, I have 23 lectures in a week and four days! Now have an essay to write by Tuesday and an exam on Wednesday! This may be the hardest thing ever if I want good grades! Anyways.. enough about work.. don't want to bore you even more!
To sum up my personal life right now:
I am currently laying in bed with earphones on and a relatively broken laptop playing a youtube playlist I just created with female love songs on it.. how sad is that?! It's Valentine's day in three days.. and I am single once again! It's so depressing.. I sometimes just think about someone I like and get that tingly feeling in my stomach.. is that love? I have no idea what it feels like.. I thought I did once and if it was love then it was such a long time ago.. I don't remember it.
Love life update:
The guy I mentioned previously.. well he is off the radar now.. completely.. I am SO GLAD I got over him.. I really didn't think I ever was. I kind of have two guys of interest at the moment. Both I shouldn't fancie and both are out of my league.. one def in looks, the other not so in looks.. more age. I no I shouldn't like an older man but I just can't bloody help it! It's very inappropriate! I'm hoping it will go away.. the other guy.. well he.. aww.. he is just not my type at all.. we are complete opposites but there is just something there, I just don't no. Maybe it's all in my head..? (Just like the Valentine's day Glee episode this week, when Kurt and Blaine had the whole - 'made it all up in my head' issue!). I have that issue I think.. I like wish, just wish, he will like me. I guess there is a universe out there where he is falling at my feet and saying how much he loves me.. but it's not this universe...
Valentine's day this year will be good though.. me and my lovely sweetpea (little H) (best mate from uni) are working hard on our essays and exams and then getting a takeaway..
Bet I'll get no cards this year.. AGAIN.. ...you never know... one of the guys may write one.. but I know they won't. Especially one, who DEF DOESN'T FANCIE ME, and the other probably doesn't. Lets name them for ease.. Man1 (old, never fancie me, completely inappropriate) and Man2 (my age, probably doesn't like me, slightly inappropriate). This is my chance out of 100 of getting them..
Man1 - 0.05%
Man2 - 1% (which is relatively high when you compare it to Man1! x20!)
What else? I guess my dream for the future isn't looking brilliant as I got 63% in one of my modules.. which I hope is the worst grade I get all year.. as I can't afford anything lower than that! I am so scared that the module I am doing now, I will get bad a grade cause its supposed to be the thing I am good at.. but we'll see. I will cry and cry if it is bad. I just wouldn't no what to do. Please, please, please wish me luck.. I have never wanted something more in my life but a good grade in this. I really should be going to bed now so I can get my beauty sleep to write that essay (which is 50% of that module!). Oh my.. I am so nervous.
I am so scared.
Please, please let things work out...
Love to all.. especially on this Valentine's day.. <3
Geogirl:)xx