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Lately I've been feeling as though something is missing. I've been going through my days relatively moderately, not too happy and not too sad. But I feel as though i'm this big empty thing walking through the halls, with little emotion. I mean, yes, at times i feel higher than normal. But it is a pretty rare occasion, and I wasn't always like this. I remember being bubbly. My bubbles have popped. I remember being able to distinguish my emotions, i can't do that much anymore. Sometimes i just sit there, and seemingly wake up and wonder what i did for that past 35 minutes. Life is short, I can't do that. I feel like I'm wasting so much time. So much time that i could be helping people, or getting things accomplished. I want to enjoy the little things of life, like holding hands, and ice skating, and just lying in the snow. I want to do that. I would give anything just to find someone who would just lie in the snow, look up at the sky, and be content just being next to me. There is so much beauty in the world, and we don't take enough time to just look. Take my back yard for example, there is a river. In front of that river, there are about 10 trees that have grown together to be just one. Snow is covering the ground surrounding it, ice is hanging from it's branches. It is beautiful, and it took 15 winters for me to notice this. I'm going to be more appreciative of the beauty around me. The end.
It's a little dark, but you get the picture.
It's a little dark, but you get the picture.