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so i'm trying to see yesterday in a new light. it was a strange day to say the least. i woke up at 4:20 am to vape then promptly fell asleep, after some stoned discussion. woke up and went to class, got back and vaped some more, then took a shower. first off, have you ever taken a shower high? holy fuck it's amazing! neway then i binged which i'm NOT gonna focus on. then i went to sleep with boy for over 12 hours. it was so nice, laying with him and such. he's gotten into the habit of pulling me close to him while he sleeps, and i love it. we went to bed at like 3 in the afternoon and woke up at like 5:30 am. lol. so we got breakfast this morning and after much freaking out i actually got a normal breakfast. i got an omlette sandwich and an iced caramel coffee. it was really hard to eat it, but the boy was right there and had his arm around me and was supporting me and all that jazz. he was so proud of me, it's hard for me to be angry at myself. so i'm gonna try to eat semi-normally until i go home. i just don't want him to worry any longer. once i get home i'll get back on track, plus i should be able to run by then so i'll be able to go full swing. but seeing that look of worry in his eyes is sometimes a bit too much. and he was so proud this morning...
i'm smoking again tonight, but vaping. i dont know when we're gonna smoke outside again, but i don't think we will anytime soon. it's too fuckin' risky. i can't believe someone fuckin' called the cops on us the other day. fuckasses. at least it doesn't look like much is gonna be done. the problem is, we had all my shit with us bc we were bringing it to his room for 4-20. so now i'm totally out of pot and it shows us having a little over a quarter with us. but he was holding it all but it was all mine. he says i should've kept silent and i wouldn't have gotten anything, but that is sooo unfair to him! he also says i should've claimed some of it was his bc it was in one of his Rx bottles, but again i could never do that to him! oddly enough, he's the only one that could have criminal charges placed on him bc it's all about possession, but none of the shit was his and his piece has no residue bc we had just bought it. in fact, we had both bought new pieces and they were taken :( how sad is that?!?! my new one was so pretty and this nice shade of teal with fun designs :( anyway, there is like no way for me to stock up for summer now. not only can i not afford it, but there just isn't the time or the bud available. so it's gonna be quite a looong summer w/o any bud :( oh well, maybe i'll eat less then.
so back to food. my plan is to eat "normally" until i get home. once i get home, i'll go back to a 10 day, and switch between 10 days and 2-4-6-8 plans. if i keep that up until july, i should be at my goal weight and able to eat normally with boy. sound good? YAY!
i'm smoking again tonight, but vaping. i dont know when we're gonna smoke outside again, but i don't think we will anytime soon. it's too fuckin' risky. i can't believe someone fuckin' called the cops on us the other day. fuckasses. at least it doesn't look like much is gonna be done. the problem is, we had all my shit with us bc we were bringing it to his room for 4-20. so now i'm totally out of pot and it shows us having a little over a quarter with us. but he was holding it all but it was all mine. he says i should've kept silent and i wouldn't have gotten anything, but that is sooo unfair to him! he also says i should've claimed some of it was his bc it was in one of his Rx bottles, but again i could never do that to him! oddly enough, he's the only one that could have criminal charges placed on him bc it's all about possession, but none of the shit was his and his piece has no residue bc we had just bought it. in fact, we had both bought new pieces and they were taken :( how sad is that?!?! my new one was so pretty and this nice shade of teal with fun designs :( anyway, there is like no way for me to stock up for summer now. not only can i not afford it, but there just isn't the time or the bud available. so it's gonna be quite a looong summer w/o any bud :( oh well, maybe i'll eat less then.
so back to food. my plan is to eat "normally" until i get home. once i get home, i'll go back to a 10 day, and switch between 10 days and 2-4-6-8 plans. if i keep that up until july, i should be at my goal weight and able to eat normally with boy. sound good? YAY!