Reflections.
I certainly landed myself here at an interesting time. The night following my settling in, I wandered into a gala and had been there no longer than five minutes that I encountered Kidd, intoxicated far beyond belief.
Details aside, I'm once again in between two people who can't seem to articulate themselves around each other, and the situation is no less uncomfortable than when I myself had feelings towards one of the parties. How does he not see that her very facial expression softens when she looks at him? Even if she was drunk, and angry, I noticed it, and it's likely she doesn't know it herself. I've spent a lot of time just watching people, I suppose; growing up to be 'seen and not heard' will do that.
She said a lot of things while I walked her to her room. A lot of things I could have done without hearing, to be brutally honest; it jeopardizes my position of being unbiased. But, I cannot unlearn what I know. I also will not divulge that which I do know. It is only proper.
Regarding the current situation, I remain without any sense of how to react. He asked for my opinion. And for a second time he told me I'm a better person than he is. How does he mean that? I don't even know who I am. Not yet.
It just might take spending most of my time removed from his spirit, and verily, his shadow, to find out.
I hope we retrieve Kidd soon, and are able to revive her. I need to return to El Nido on Sunday for drills and training. I wonder if there is somewhere on the moon that bellflowers would bloom?
Details aside, I'm once again in between two people who can't seem to articulate themselves around each other, and the situation is no less uncomfortable than when I myself had feelings towards one of the parties. How does he not see that her very facial expression softens when she looks at him? Even if she was drunk, and angry, I noticed it, and it's likely she doesn't know it herself. I've spent a lot of time just watching people, I suppose; growing up to be 'seen and not heard' will do that.
She said a lot of things while I walked her to her room. A lot of things I could have done without hearing, to be brutally honest; it jeopardizes my position of being unbiased. But, I cannot unlearn what I know. I also will not divulge that which I do know. It is only proper.
Regarding the current situation, I remain without any sense of how to react. He asked for my opinion. And for a second time he told me I'm a better person than he is. How does he mean that? I don't even know who I am. Not yet.
It just might take spending most of my time removed from his spirit, and verily, his shadow, to find out.
I hope we retrieve Kidd soon, and are able to revive her. I need to return to El Nido on Sunday for drills and training. I wonder if there is somewhere on the moon that bellflowers would bloom?