VOTE!! VOTE!! VOTE!!
Ok, I'm like many here (at least on my friends list) that is extremely vocal about people going out and voting. I've done my duty. Hubby is getting ready to go out and do his thing before going to PT. He cancels out my vote. I cancel out his. Great way to look at things, huh? It's how my parents look at voting. That way they both know it's been done because they don't want the other to win on any major issue. Yes, it's strange. But, there is a little twist of weird humor to it as well.
I've been doing ok with my weight loss. I haven't been walking since Sunday. Yes, it's been raining. Yes, the rain has stopped occassionally. I just haven't had the umph to go out and do it. I've slid back some with my depression. I think that has to do with the problems I'm having inside myself and with Hubby. There was a *tiny* meeting of the minds last night. I feel a little better, but there are still feelings there that I don't know what to do about.
My key issue is that I don't know who I am any longer. I've had to be so many things over the last couple of years, especially since finding out we were pregnant, and then the major catastrophe with Hubby's back and being off work. I had to do so much when he was out on his back. But, at the same time, I couldn't do much at all because of being on bed rest from a complicated pregnancy. How can I be anything to anyone if I can't find out what I need to be for myself? That is the question I continue struggling with, and I continue not finding an answer for.
Another thing that I'm dealing with is loneliness. I want so badly to have some friends. I'm just too dang shy to go out and actually do something about it. I know one from here on LJ that I've met in person a few times (she knows who she is! *hug*), and have tried to meet a couple of others that just couldn't happen. I hate being alone. Everyone needs friendship, even me. I just don't know how to go about doing just that.
Something else that has been heavy on my mind is a business aspect that I have made with a family member of mine. I feel a bit lost at exactly what I'm supposed to do, and how to go about getting on track of where I'm supposed to be. She's not part of the LJ revolution, so I know what I talk about here won't get back to her. I don't have anything bad to say. I'm just frustrated at how to go about getting what I want. The business venture I'm working with has the capibility of allowing me to work from home no more than about 20 hours a week, and will bring in a considerable amount of money. The kicker is just getting started. I guess with every starting business, the struggle comes at the beginning and goes away with time. She's expected to be going to my family reunion that we'll be going to at the end of this week. Maybe I'll have a chance to spend some time with her about what my next steps should be. It certainly won't hurt anything.
I've been doing ok with my weight loss. I haven't been walking since Sunday. Yes, it's been raining. Yes, the rain has stopped occassionally. I just haven't had the umph to go out and do it. I've slid back some with my depression. I think that has to do with the problems I'm having inside myself and with Hubby. There was a *tiny* meeting of the minds last night. I feel a little better, but there are still feelings there that I don't know what to do about.
My key issue is that I don't know who I am any longer. I've had to be so many things over the last couple of years, especially since finding out we were pregnant, and then the major catastrophe with Hubby's back and being off work. I had to do so much when he was out on his back. But, at the same time, I couldn't do much at all because of being on bed rest from a complicated pregnancy. How can I be anything to anyone if I can't find out what I need to be for myself? That is the question I continue struggling with, and I continue not finding an answer for.
Another thing that I'm dealing with is loneliness. I want so badly to have some friends. I'm just too dang shy to go out and actually do something about it. I know one from here on LJ that I've met in person a few times (she knows who she is! *hug*), and have tried to meet a couple of others that just couldn't happen. I hate being alone. Everyone needs friendship, even me. I just don't know how to go about doing just that.
Something else that has been heavy on my mind is a business aspect that I have made with a family member of mine. I feel a bit lost at exactly what I'm supposed to do, and how to go about getting on track of where I'm supposed to be. She's not part of the LJ revolution, so I know what I talk about here won't get back to her. I don't have anything bad to say. I'm just frustrated at how to go about getting what I want. The business venture I'm working with has the capibility of allowing me to work from home no more than about 20 hours a week, and will bring in a considerable amount of money. The kicker is just getting started. I guess with every starting business, the struggle comes at the beginning and goes away with time. She's expected to be going to my family reunion that we'll be going to at the end of this week. Maybe I'll have a chance to spend some time with her about what my next steps should be. It certainly won't hurt anything.