emotion overload Venting
Basically I'm feeling bad and this is me venting.
I am getting sick and tired of this. I am so stressed right now. Why is it so hard to get a job? Really? And the thing is that is not what I’m the most bugged by right now. I guess I’ve gone back to a venting mood. For this is ridiculous how I feel, but I really need to find a way to get this out and writing it is the best way. Even though I’ve been spending most of my time with my best friend I still feel alone. I feel so separated from the world. In a way that can be a good thing, as some people say ignorance is bliss. Still this is putting me in way to much emotion pain (and then I get distracted and say: do you want to see my emotional scars?). Thing is even in trying to describe this it’s like a story and right now I’m trying to grasp the words I want to use. I am really random, but right now I feel like I’m too random. I can’t seem to concentrate on anything and that seems to be making things worse. If I concentrate on anything it’s some TV show or me thinking about this boy, whom is giving me more pain than he knows about as I wait for his response to me liking him. Or I end up thinking how stupid I am and then all I can seem to do is drown in my own brain as I listen to Breaking Benjamin songs. And I have to rely on my friends just to help me through the day. I don’t know how else to describe this, I just, just, need someone else to talk about this even if it’s yelling some person after I get run over by a car. Or maybe I’ll explode spontaneously from my emotional overload. But that’s not happening anytime soon, so I just get to sulk in the corner until my friend makes me watch another episode of Big Bang Theory. Until next time if anyone has any good advice or helpful things to say to this than they are welcome to comment on this.