kiss my fist, stop at nothing
I dreamed that my sister was criticizing everything I did. I dreamed that my co-worker had an Gila Monster, and it saved my dream by eating the 4 high-speed black widows behind her tv. Those black widows jumped towards me before the lizard ate them, and I almost probably would've woken up freaking out. I dreamed I found a brand new couch out on the road and thought about putting it in my van, because someone didn't want it. It was snowing outside, and I thought that was weird since it's almost July. I dreamed I found a medicine bottle full of cum, and I poured it all over a tv.
I dreamed I was speaking in tounges with god, who was behind a bunch of bright clouds within a nebula where everything was in stasis, and it felt like I was on a stage. I don't believe glossolalia (speaking in tounges) is only an abrahamic/christian phenomenon. Thank god/gods/goddessess/energy, because if so, I'd be scared...religions like christianity scare me.
I think people who move themselves away from sex, move themselves towards a desire for war. People who think they're 'sex addicts' and feel they need to 'control' themselves should look at the reason within as for why they want sex. I don't think people who consider themselves "sex addicts" are really that addicted to sex. It's not "unhealthy" to have a fruitful sexual relationship with one person, even if you're doing it many times a day.
I don't think you're meant to be a christian just because you talk to god, or that voice in your head, or whatever the fuck you think of it.
I feel like one of my coworkers is trying to set me up to fall on my face, or catch me in a lie. She -always- acts like she's walking on egg shells when she's around me, it's kind of the only way I've gotten to know her. She throws this super-administrative authority voice at me on the phone over things I have no control over. Otherwise, I'm a slave to my clients, and my boss is insane. I can't wait to quit...6 more weeks...or 5? I'm giving my notice next week.
Then, I get to go to duluth for a nice little break. I have to figure this school thing out. I'm looking forward to it, but I feel so apprehensive and anxious when I think about it. Where I'll live, how I'll pay my bills, will I get enough food, how highly in debt I'll become after the 1st semester...I got 3,500 paid for me for each semester which is more than I hoped for from fed/state grants, but it literally is only covering 50% of my tuition per semester. that's another 7,000 I gotta find, not including books.
Money is scary. I started a savings account last year that will hopefully cover all my food expenses for a semester at least...that's the way it's looking right now.
I feel a sense of helplessness for where our country is going, and am going to try and just do the best I can to make myself happy. I was watching an interview the other day where this journalist brought up a point I forgot my anthropology teacher said a long time ago- World wars are great for the country that wins. Because then their economy skyrockets, and they get to help rebuild the countries that they demolished. He was getting to the point that the united states needs to secure itself another war victory in order to remain a world power, and it's time is running out. Otherwise...
I could live with America not being a world power. What scares me is the thought of all our K-12 education going out the window, public schools just becoming workforce training centers for youth (which is already what's being hinted at), and higher education becoming very difficult to acquire, with a lifetime of heavy labor being favored by an industrial society.
Why is minnesota becoming a tea-party republican bastion? I moved here thinking it was this super liberal state. I gotta get out of Alexandria. Soon. If not Fargo, then back to Denver, or beyond.
I dreamed I was speaking in tounges with god, who was behind a bunch of bright clouds within a nebula where everything was in stasis, and it felt like I was on a stage. I don't believe glossolalia (speaking in tounges) is only an abrahamic/christian phenomenon. Thank god/gods/goddessess/energy, because if so, I'd be scared...religions like christianity scare me.
I think people who move themselves away from sex, move themselves towards a desire for war. People who think they're 'sex addicts' and feel they need to 'control' themselves should look at the reason within as for why they want sex. I don't think people who consider themselves "sex addicts" are really that addicted to sex. It's not "unhealthy" to have a fruitful sexual relationship with one person, even if you're doing it many times a day.
I don't think you're meant to be a christian just because you talk to god, or that voice in your head, or whatever the fuck you think of it.
I feel like one of my coworkers is trying to set me up to fall on my face, or catch me in a lie. She -always- acts like she's walking on egg shells when she's around me, it's kind of the only way I've gotten to know her. She throws this super-administrative authority voice at me on the phone over things I have no control over. Otherwise, I'm a slave to my clients, and my boss is insane. I can't wait to quit...6 more weeks...or 5? I'm giving my notice next week.
Then, I get to go to duluth for a nice little break. I have to figure this school thing out. I'm looking forward to it, but I feel so apprehensive and anxious when I think about it. Where I'll live, how I'll pay my bills, will I get enough food, how highly in debt I'll become after the 1st semester...I got 3,500 paid for me for each semester which is more than I hoped for from fed/state grants, but it literally is only covering 50% of my tuition per semester. that's another 7,000 I gotta find, not including books.
Money is scary. I started a savings account last year that will hopefully cover all my food expenses for a semester at least...that's the way it's looking right now.
I feel a sense of helplessness for where our country is going, and am going to try and just do the best I can to make myself happy. I was watching an interview the other day where this journalist brought up a point I forgot my anthropology teacher said a long time ago- World wars are great for the country that wins. Because then their economy skyrockets, and they get to help rebuild the countries that they demolished. He was getting to the point that the united states needs to secure itself another war victory in order to remain a world power, and it's time is running out. Otherwise...
I could live with America not being a world power. What scares me is the thought of all our K-12 education going out the window, public schools just becoming workforce training centers for youth (which is already what's being hinted at), and higher education becoming very difficult to acquire, with a lifetime of heavy labor being favored by an industrial society.
Why is minnesota becoming a tea-party republican bastion? I moved here thinking it was this super liberal state. I gotta get out of Alexandria. Soon. If not Fargo, then back to Denver, or beyond.