There's no end to this thing called My Fucking Life
It was never supposed to be like this. It's not even like it's that big of a deal, but somehow, like all things, it's getting to me and I'm feeling the effects.
And NO, I'm not writing about this to start a "LJ war", or whatever. Like I said, when something goes wrong, who am I supposed to go to?
I just want everyone to get along. It's not easy to have friends and a boyfriend that just do not get along. I want everyone to hang out and to have a good time, but that's never going to happen. And what do I do? I'm constantly in the middle.
And I don't even know if I'm doing anything wrong, cos no one will ever tell me. I don't know how to manage both friends and a boyfriend yet...I've NEVER had to do that. Ever. Maybe this is why. Because I am destine to NOT be able to do it. To always upset someone.
Maybe I'm the problem.
I want to be happy that I found someone to "like me for who I am" (yeah right, who are we kidding, not ourselves), but I can't when no one can get along. The silence kills me. When no one will look at me, it's like my old scars are just coming back.
Don't make fun of the way I talk.
That's all I want. Is everyone to get along so we can all hang out.
But that is NEVER going to happen.
All I know, is that something HAS to change, or else this "perfect" semester is over before it began.
And that, my friends, is my life.
And what can I do now?
Suck it up and go on with it.
And NO, I'm not writing about this to start a "LJ war", or whatever. Like I said, when something goes wrong, who am I supposed to go to?
I just want everyone to get along. It's not easy to have friends and a boyfriend that just do not get along. I want everyone to hang out and to have a good time, but that's never going to happen. And what do I do? I'm constantly in the middle.
And I don't even know if I'm doing anything wrong, cos no one will ever tell me. I don't know how to manage both friends and a boyfriend yet...I've NEVER had to do that. Ever. Maybe this is why. Because I am destine to NOT be able to do it. To always upset someone.
Maybe I'm the problem.
I want to be happy that I found someone to "like me for who I am" (yeah right, who are we kidding, not ourselves), but I can't when no one can get along. The silence kills me. When no one will look at me, it's like my old scars are just coming back.
Don't make fun of the way I talk.
That's all I want. Is everyone to get along so we can all hang out.
But that is NEVER going to happen.
All I know, is that something HAS to change, or else this "perfect" semester is over before it began.
And that, my friends, is my life.
And what can I do now?
Suck it up and go on with it.