Don't know what to do with myself.

[genniidrominda]

My grandfather, the one who walked me down the aisle at my wedding, has been diagnosed with advanced stage lung cancer. He's currently in the ICU, with fluid filled lungs, which are affecting his pacemaker... Which means that they can't do any sort of chemo until his lungs stop being full of stuff.

I can't even begin to think about work today. I called out, I know that stinks for my work ethic, and also stinks on my attendance points... and I don't even give a shit. My grandfather is dying, and I feel so damn helpless...

Fuck, I need a hug.