Control
Title: Control
Pairing: Jaejoong/Yoochun, Yoochun Centric (i think)
Genre: angst, romance
length: drabble
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: If i owned them, i'd ask jae for beauty tips. ;)
A/N: The LJ-cut for this is really messed up. I apologize, but i can't fix it.
Summary: 'Its been raining since he left me.'
Control
'Its been raining since you left me.' thinks yoochun as he stares outside the window
at the crisp clear puddles of raindrops scattered across the road. He presses his forehead
on the thin glass and closes his eyes. 'No, I've been crying since you left me.'
He lays in bed; fingers entwined with his as he listens to the close beat of his lover's
heart. Fingers are stroking his raven colored locks and he hums thoughtfully with his head
on his chest. 'You'll never leave, right?' he asks as he skims the others' wrist with the back of his
thumb. The other is quiet for a moment enjoying the time they have together and yoochun sighs,
'Its ok, you don't have to answer that hyung.' He manages to get up and free himself from the other's
embrace. He drags his feet across the rugged carpet, just dying to get out of the room, to escape the
fool he had just made out of himself.
As he turned the door knob, he felt two arms circling his waist. He almost cried as his lover whispered
'How can i not leave you?'
He sobs his eyes out once he heard the new. He never expected it. He was so healthy, so perfect, so him.
Panic rises as he listens to changmin's stuttering news. The poor maknae can't keep up with himself over the
phone. Yoochun's patience is wearing thin and he just wants to kill someone. He urges changmin to calm down
and tell him what happend.
'Yoochun-hyung, h-he was taken to the hospital, hyung-' the last part comes in a slight whisper and yoochun's
eyes widened 'He might not make it.'
Yoochun cries as he hangs up. He struggles to overcome the urge to drop to his knees and sob his heart out. To
punch at the floor, to kick at the rug, to smash the phone, and to yell his lungs out. But he doesn't.
He wouldn't want that.
He wants what's best for him.
He loves him.
He loves him more than life itself.
Yoochun continues to stare at the outside world, a world he is no longer part of, as the drops of rain become more and more violent.
He wills himself not to cry, but its inevitable. Like everything else that happens in life, it happens for a reason.
He cannot accept it.
'You love me right?' he smiles as he answers with all the sincerity in his heart.
'More than myself. Remember that.' A kiss is placed on his cheek and he smiles
'I'll always be with you. I promise.'
They've been crying since you left them
We've been crying since you left us.
I've been crying since you left me, Jaejoong hyung....