...and to think, autumn used to be my favorite season!
rained a bit this morning, which does nothing good for my mood - but "washed away the filth off the streets". yea - there's a bit of garbage even in the upscale neighborhood i live in...inevitable when you get more than two humans together.
the business plan is coming together nicely - even if i do say so myself - and it surprised me how easy and quick it was for me to put together. hope the bank(s) appreciate my genious! i do have enough from the sale of the house to get off the ground...but would like to have a cushion - the conservative in me likes to pay bills and keep the tax man at bay. plus it's expensive being me. i'm not caviar and champagne...but i do like egyptian cotton sheets and french cheese. and the occasional trek half way cross the world. oh, and the dog likes murphy's stew from the states...and yea - she eats better than half the human population...sometimes she eats better than me!
anyways...the chick flix night was a success - bolstered my mood up from wrist cutting to moping for the remainder of the day. i'm able to get to work and home...then telly and bed. showering optional...though i did wash my hair today. think i need the meds adjusted, they don't seem to be doing the job. they have gotten me off the alcohol, but play hell with my weight - i've gained 15 lbs! and i didn't need the extra baggage. see the shrink tomorrow and we'll chat it all up, see what can be done. i'm still depressed - sober, but depressed...maybe should go back to the beer - drunk and happy---or sober and suicidal---hmmm, choices, choices!
the business plan is coming together nicely - even if i do say so myself - and it surprised me how easy and quick it was for me to put together. hope the bank(s) appreciate my genious! i do have enough from the sale of the house to get off the ground...but would like to have a cushion - the conservative in me likes to pay bills and keep the tax man at bay. plus it's expensive being me. i'm not caviar and champagne...but i do like egyptian cotton sheets and french cheese. and the occasional trek half way cross the world. oh, and the dog likes murphy's stew from the states...and yea - she eats better than half the human population...sometimes she eats better than me!
anyways...the chick flix night was a success - bolstered my mood up from wrist cutting to moping for the remainder of the day. i'm able to get to work and home...then telly and bed. showering optional...though i did wash my hair today. think i need the meds adjusted, they don't seem to be doing the job. they have gotten me off the alcohol, but play hell with my weight - i've gained 15 lbs! and i didn't need the extra baggage. see the shrink tomorrow and we'll chat it all up, see what can be done. i'm still depressed - sober, but depressed...maybe should go back to the beer - drunk and happy---or sober and suicidal---hmmm, choices, choices!