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[genkenren]

I hate this apathy, it keeps me from anything that could make me happy in life. A younger me would never say die like the person I am today. I don't like who I am. I'm trying to listen to the heart of who I am but that voice is so weak. The only person who disappoints me more than everyone else in this life is myself.

I want to fight this reality. I want to crush through it, to find something better... something truer... something I can be proud of.