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I have one job again. Left Best Buy....complications......everythings great though :( yup my life is really going how I want it to in most fields. I was gonna get stoned and take my drug test and fail so i didn't have to let Best Buy down...but then I was just like..I'm too broke to get stoned..so I just told Best Buy I couldn't work 2 jobs due to
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second of all, I can't do Best Buy because I can't have a full time job at albertsons..go to school full time and have a part time job..so I was like..naw...I'll look for a new full time job after the holidays
third of all...I said I wanted to party till I passed out..not drink till I pass out...so don't give me that told ya so crap...I just wanna go to Arlands and just be so energetic and play the piano and talk to people till Im so tired and then sleep.and maybe have one drink or so because nothing is wrong with that other than legal issues.
Fourth of all,I'm sure there's better girls out there..obviously the girl I marry in my opinion will be better...I mean I'm sure there's better guys out there for you..I wasn't saying anything against you..more to make myself feel better..I didn't see any offense in it..sorry I guess?just trying to be optimistic for myself jsut like you writing that poem to make yourself feel better
fifth of all, you can't even define love...love is eternal so obviously you havent felt real love where your whole heart is in love...and I don't believe in partial heart love and your philosophy of you love everyone you go out to a certain extent is bs in my opinion..I haven't felt love either...and love can not be perfectly defined in words...it's an emotional feeling..probably..hell if I know
sixth of all, yes I believe in waiting until marriage....it's more of a personal preference than religious..but I don't completely follow what most christians believe..I've seen how sex ruins things and I don't want to get into it until marriage...because if you wait till ur in love and it doesn't work it..it brings even more pain and isn't fair to the next person and can bring the next person hurt. your commitment has to match up with what you're doing in the relationship...but only a minor part of it is religious...and I never ever condemn people who have sex outside of marriage....that's wrong and I respect what they believe and it's all about ur own personal preference..so I don't think it's totally wrong to have sex before marriage..just not emotional pain I wanna go through..and premiscuous sex leaves u feelin guilt in the end..so it's not worth it. None of my beliefs have changed...I've been for drinking, for smoking, for gay marriage...all that..im liberal...I dont wanna smoke but dont mind anyone else that does..none of my beliefs have even slightly changed..I've been the same all through my christian,atheist,lutheran,agnostic,theist believing days.
I do want to call you..at the same time I don't....I'm still not ready....because we've been talking like we did when we went out and it reminds me too much of how it was so it still hurts at the same time I like it. But I really did wanna continue talking to you on the phone that one day but I was at work and then I thought u may have been in bed by the time I got off work and at home. I'm sure I'll eventually call.but come on..you can't expect things to go back to the way it was and did you really think things would stay the same as it was?? which means u gave an impossible standard for us getting back together so I gave up..but still moving on....anyway, adios.have a good day..talk to you later..do ur math homework missy! drive safe! have a great friday doing whatever ur doing...peace out!
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Math homework... yah... I need to do that... Monday morning! Ha.
It's cool I'm not expecting things to be the same right away Jon. Whenever you're ready. I've always been like that in my past relationships so it's not impossible in my thinking.
I'm glad, wait til marriage. Or I'll kick your butt. Even though it is fun ;D
I believe in my definition of love. That's how I see it. Maybe it'll change one day. But for now, that's how it is for me. Then again, I don't fully believe in love to begin with. I've never seen a marriage with passion last.
Not better period. More fit for you. Saying that there are better girls than the ones that you dated in the past is totally dissing them all. Like they were worthless sluts that don't deserve anyones time.
Party drinking. Okay.
You just got live journal thought. This isn't myspace. Myspace is gay.
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