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"Having been born into the world, I had to find something to do.  But what that something was, I had no idea.  I stood paralyzed, alone and shut in by a fog, hoping that a single ray of sunlight would shine through to me, hoping more that I could turn a searchlight outward and find a lighted path ahead, however narrow.  But where I looked, there was only obscutiry, a formless blur.  I felt as if I had been sealed in a sack, unable to escape.  If only I had something sharp, I could tear a hole in the sack, I thought, struggling frantically, but no one handed me what I needed, nor could I find it for myself.  There was nothing for me to do but spend day after day in a pall of gloom that I concealed from others even as I kept asking myself, "What will become of me?" "

- - Natusme Soseki - - My Individualism