Here's a lotta typing that should be appreciated.
I realized my big move from parents to live in couple would change my life a LOT... but SO drastically and so quickly, I had not planned on. Reflecting on the parallels between me and my new heroine in the book I'm reading... I realized just how intense all this really is... I noticed it before, but when you hear about other people going through it and you contemplate the madness it must endure to actual LIVE in such chaos... and then I realized that was me.
I haven't had or made the time to come on livejournal... I didn't even miss it nearly as much as I would of imagined... but slowly taking it's toll I realized... I missed knowing how everyone was! I hate that now when I talk to someone I'm frantically trying to remember where they were in the scheme of life last time we talked and how much catching up we both had to do... only to not see eachother for another long span of time where we'd have to rehearse the scene all over again!
But now (yes, I am starting with BUT... I always feel guilty when I do that...), classes are OFFICIALLY over, I just have orientation tomorrow for my splendid new job at a REAL resturant (marble top tables and rosewood walls, and now that I've even made time to read books for pleasure again I figured... may as well get back in to LJ so I can remind myself what it's like to be close with friends again... although, I imagine the slow paced schedule won't last long... seeing as the 1st line is due up any day and then I'll have to deffinately get a move on finalizing a few last pieces and really getting to work on the 2nd line... then THE models... again... and that was the most fun and stressful of the whole thing... god, another photo shoot... it's only the second one and I'm dreading it already! I should just remind myself the last one was a "learning expirence" and the next shall run much smoother and all be damned if after a five hour shoot if I don't have EVERY shot I need! *breath*
So, catch up!
SCHOOL:
Just had my LAST class today! YAY! Final grades for Spring 2005
US Government: F
Abnormal Psychology: A
Intro To Humanities: A
F, A, A... sounds like me... never any middle ground, but at least it balances leaning more to the positive! At least there's grade forgiveness and this semester is over... I think everyone will empathize with me on Gov... except for two people and I am nearly positive that both of them a.) don't care at all b.) hardly read my journals anyhoo and/or c.) wouldn't have bothered to read a post this long without pictures.
WORK:
Where I left off was... Hops... store closed out of no where a few days before rent was due... you may remember reading this:
"Oh, but let us not forget the wonderful severence pay check they gave me. $36...
The dog needs food, we're living off of box mac n cheese, the dog needs more advantage, I need gas, rent is due tomorrow and I'm on my last ciggarette... and I'm NOW unemployeed.... but at least I have $36 for this inconvience. *BIG FAKE CHEESY SMILE!*"
Well, in between all that time... I mainly focused on the business (which I'll get to later), but I was briefly caught serving tables at Applebee's near UCF... That lasted a grand whooping total of TWO WEEKS!
IT WAS ABSOLUTELY HURENDOUS! I never realized how LOW LOW LOW LOW class the place was! I couldn't take it! After being miserable, depressed, exhausted and shamed... I came home one night balling and threw down the $39 I made in a 7 hr shift and said "I'm better than this!!!" ... not much longer I went job hunting AGAIN, this time looking for something worth while and not just a temporary means to get by... and I pulled myself out of a VERY undesirable position...
good-bye busing tables, washing dished, lousy tips, nasty polo and disgusting side work!
hello rose wood walls, marble top tables, busers, no side work, high prices and good tips! WOOT!
R.I.P. Designs
I'll be breif since I'm meeting up with most of you shortly for Big Daddy's... We have our entity! We are an LLC! We have our P.O. Box, tax ID, business bank account, business cards, FEIN #, ect! AND our FIRST line will be out soon! We've already sent Andy, our web designer, everything he needs to get the clothes up so they should be up within a week!
We're very excited and proud... and soon as those clothes are up i'll probably get a little sweaty waiting to see the response.
"US":
I could go on FOREVER about how much I've realized about relationships and life... Right now I'm living in the real world for the first time. I am paying my own bills, being responsible, working, blah... that shit... I still suck at it. Without Mark I would of surely been thrown away by bill collectors by now... but I'm finally almost out of debt and paying bills okay.
It's crazy how much everythings changed! I don't know how to deal with it most of the time to be honest... thank god for pot... sometimes a hot bath just aint gonna cut it.. a massage seems like torture just because you'll have to share the air in the room with another person... and a cup of tea just means more caffine to keep you conscious longer... Pot is seriously a gift from God sometimes. That and having peace and quiet... and sleep... *sigh*
I really just want to read my book and go to bed now... eh, I'll regret not getting out later if I don't leave now.
I haven't had or made the time to come on livejournal... I didn't even miss it nearly as much as I would of imagined... but slowly taking it's toll I realized... I missed knowing how everyone was! I hate that now when I talk to someone I'm frantically trying to remember where they were in the scheme of life last time we talked and how much catching up we both had to do... only to not see eachother for another long span of time where we'd have to rehearse the scene all over again!
But now (yes, I am starting with BUT... I always feel guilty when I do that...), classes are OFFICIALLY over, I just have orientation tomorrow for my splendid new job at a REAL resturant (marble top tables and rosewood walls, and now that I've even made time to read books for pleasure again I figured... may as well get back in to LJ so I can remind myself what it's like to be close with friends again... although, I imagine the slow paced schedule won't last long... seeing as the 1st line is due up any day and then I'll have to deffinately get a move on finalizing a few last pieces and really getting to work on the 2nd line... then THE models... again... and that was the most fun and stressful of the whole thing... god, another photo shoot... it's only the second one and I'm dreading it already! I should just remind myself the last one was a "learning expirence" and the next shall run much smoother and all be damned if after a five hour shoot if I don't have EVERY shot I need! *breath*
So, catch up!
SCHOOL:
Just had my LAST class today! YAY! Final grades for Spring 2005
US Government: F
Abnormal Psychology: A
Intro To Humanities: A
F, A, A... sounds like me... never any middle ground, but at least it balances leaning more to the positive! At least there's grade forgiveness and this semester is over... I think everyone will empathize with me on Gov... except for two people and I am nearly positive that both of them a.) don't care at all b.) hardly read my journals anyhoo and/or c.) wouldn't have bothered to read a post this long without pictures.
WORK:
Where I left off was... Hops... store closed out of no where a few days before rent was due... you may remember reading this:
"Oh, but let us not forget the wonderful severence pay check they gave me. $36...
The dog needs food, we're living off of box mac n cheese, the dog needs more advantage, I need gas, rent is due tomorrow and I'm on my last ciggarette... and I'm NOW unemployeed.... but at least I have $36 for this inconvience. *BIG FAKE CHEESY SMILE!*"
Well, in between all that time... I mainly focused on the business (which I'll get to later), but I was briefly caught serving tables at Applebee's near UCF... That lasted a grand whooping total of TWO WEEKS!
IT WAS ABSOLUTELY HURENDOUS! I never realized how LOW LOW LOW LOW class the place was! I couldn't take it! After being miserable, depressed, exhausted and shamed... I came home one night balling and threw down the $39 I made in a 7 hr shift and said "I'm better than this!!!" ... not much longer I went job hunting AGAIN, this time looking for something worth while and not just a temporary means to get by... and I pulled myself out of a VERY undesirable position...
good-bye busing tables, washing dished, lousy tips, nasty polo and disgusting side work!
hello rose wood walls, marble top tables, busers, no side work, high prices and good tips! WOOT!
R.I.P. Designs
I'll be breif since I'm meeting up with most of you shortly for Big Daddy's... We have our entity! We are an LLC! We have our P.O. Box, tax ID, business bank account, business cards, FEIN #, ect! AND our FIRST line will be out soon! We've already sent Andy, our web designer, everything he needs to get the clothes up so they should be up within a week!
We're very excited and proud... and soon as those clothes are up i'll probably get a little sweaty waiting to see the response.
"US":
I could go on FOREVER about how much I've realized about relationships and life... Right now I'm living in the real world for the first time. I am paying my own bills, being responsible, working, blah... that shit... I still suck at it. Without Mark I would of surely been thrown away by bill collectors by now... but I'm finally almost out of debt and paying bills okay.
It's crazy how much everythings changed! I don't know how to deal with it most of the time to be honest... thank god for pot... sometimes a hot bath just aint gonna cut it.. a massage seems like torture just because you'll have to share the air in the room with another person... and a cup of tea just means more caffine to keep you conscious longer... Pot is seriously a gift from God sometimes. That and having peace and quiet... and sleep... *sigh*
I really just want to read my book and go to bed now... eh, I'll regret not getting out later if I don't leave now.