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wow... ic ant believe school starts in a fucking WEEK...this sucks alot :o( and i tried to go shopping wiht amanda and there was nothign to get, i almost bought a 40$ coach keychain just so i could buy something.. haha my dads taking me shopping tomorrow at fair oaks though, hopefully that mall will have something..im so nervous to go back to school. id ont even know if people will remember me and i dont know if i have classes with anyone! im scaredd plus im gonna be a senior, and after this year, i have to go to college and thats gong to be the scariest expirience of my life, i wonder if me and torin will still be together then..i dunno i just dont know what this year is going to be like at all, just scary, cus i havent really kept in touch with too many people besides like amanda and hte people how already graduated so it kinda suckss. i dont even know waht to think right now, im tired and im sick adn im getting depressed again and im pmsing. so like i dont know what to do about torin, i mean i was kinda like "whatever" towards him and i guess he could tell i was upset but he didnt really care and when im feeling like this i hate fighting for his affection but i mean i guess its cus bob was there or seomthing, i dont know. but if our relationship is going to be based on sex then i really dont think i can do it. i was soo shocked he said that to me today,i mean i dont even know if it was him or bob but it upset me and when bob leaves (which hopefully he does) tehn im going to talk to him abotu it. i fuckign hope bob leaves. i dont like bob very much sometimes he really pisses me off ughh..btu i dont want to let him get to mine and torins relationship..god life sucks right now..i want to be in his arms