Well its over
well its over after three years its over...jills not willing to try to fix things or she doesnt want too...whatever the fuck she never was in the beginning...so i guess it was all just a big game to her...telling me that she loved me wanted to have children with me...the ring she picked meant nothing to her...her saying yes to my proposal...another game...we broke up because she needed her space to figure out what she wanted to do as a career after graduation..well what i think it was is that she wanted to test the waters with someone else....in the end it was all just a big game to her..she says she cant deal with it she cant forgive me for the things i have done...and yes i do agree i have done some horrible things...but hey i was able to look past the fact that she went and kissed another guy and then lied to me about it....so now what am i to do...i still love her why i dont know im just fucking stupid you could say...had i tried to be better about the things she had a problem with yes...i have i slipped and asked to many questions yep i have but i cant change over nite like she wanted...nobody can...no mater how hard we try we are human and we are not perfect... not even her...so now i have a ring that meant the world to me but meant shit to her and i have to get rid of it...anybody want to buy it or know some one who does...i would like to get a reasonable amount back out of it...in the end jill and i are both losers...i had my heart stomped on and she is losing someone that would do anything for her.. oh well fuck it...bye