crack is whack
or so the kids say. so its the last weekend before school starts. whats up with that? oh, and how about that secret romance? She hasn't called me since the "hot date"! But we won't talk about that again, she's not worth it. I think I'm gonna stop trying in general and then maybe it'll just kind of happen, and at least if it doesn't I won't really care, and if it does then like whoopee surprise. I'll be busy anyway. I just keep getting the feeling more and more that the only person I can rely on, or will be able to rely on is myself. Which is sad because I don't want to be that guy.
Here, let me give you brief glance at my brain:
-two nights ago I was sitting around trying to be productive. I've been kind of working on this tabletop role-playing game off and on since the summer. It involves dice (of course) and I was trying to figure out dice probabilities. I know enough about probability to figure it out, but I didn't really know enough to do it quickly. I figured there must have been some quicker way of figuring it out, but I just didn't know what it was. Let me give you an example of what I was trying to figure out (skip this bit unless you're a nerd): Lets say you're trying to figure out the probability of rolling at least 3 4's out of 6 dice. Now, to find out the probability you have to find the probability of exactly 3 4's plus the probability of 4 4's, 5 4's and 6 4's. Now the probability of one roll of 3 4's out of six would be something like 1/6*1/6*1/6*5/6*5/6*5/6. But thats the easy part. Its only one specific combination. Picture it this way, imagine every successful roll of 3 as a 1 and every failure as a 0. The example above would be 111000. BUT there are many other possible combinations of 3 1's and 3 0's. Now in this case it doesn't work out to be too much, its only 10. But thats not easy to tell just by looking at it. And what if I wanted to know 5 successes out of 10 or something. It would get very complicated very fast, and to do all of the combinations out would take far too long. I knew there had to be a pattern or an equation or something because its math or whatever.
BOTTOM LINE: I stayed up until 6 am figuring out the pattern!! 6 am!! Hey Russell, you're on vacation, you can do whatever the fuck you want, go party, sleep, whatever. I'm up till 6 am doing a math problem! AND I'M PROUD OF IT. Especially because I figured it out. Ask me and I'll tell you what the answer is.
-So the next day, I was happy about it, thought it was cool. I was kinda tired, had to go to work. So I'm up in the stacks putting books away and it strikes me... I want to prepare a stand-up routine. Now don't get me wrong, I don't want to be a stand-up comic, this wasn't a career change or an epiphany or anything. Its like, just in case I ever have to do one... uh.. I'll be prepared. WHAT THE FUCK? I think it was really more that I wanted to know what would go into doing one, and whether I could do it. I think it was also feuled by those commercials on comedy central where they have some guy standing at a microphone being all like, "I don't know what to say" and then comedy central being all like, "stand-up is hard"
Yeah, so kitchen, if you're reading this, I know you read every bit of it, and know exactly what I mean.
Here, let me give you brief glance at my brain:
-two nights ago I was sitting around trying to be productive. I've been kind of working on this tabletop role-playing game off and on since the summer. It involves dice (of course) and I was trying to figure out dice probabilities. I know enough about probability to figure it out, but I didn't really know enough to do it quickly. I figured there must have been some quicker way of figuring it out, but I just didn't know what it was. Let me give you an example of what I was trying to figure out (skip this bit unless you're a nerd): Lets say you're trying to figure out the probability of rolling at least 3 4's out of 6 dice. Now, to find out the probability you have to find the probability of exactly 3 4's plus the probability of 4 4's, 5 4's and 6 4's. Now the probability of one roll of 3 4's out of six would be something like 1/6*1/6*1/6*5/6*5/6*5/6. But thats the easy part. Its only one specific combination. Picture it this way, imagine every successful roll of 3 as a 1 and every failure as a 0. The example above would be 111000. BUT there are many other possible combinations of 3 1's and 3 0's. Now in this case it doesn't work out to be too much, its only 10. But thats not easy to tell just by looking at it. And what if I wanted to know 5 successes out of 10 or something. It would get very complicated very fast, and to do all of the combinations out would take far too long. I knew there had to be a pattern or an equation or something because its math or whatever.
BOTTOM LINE: I stayed up until 6 am figuring out the pattern!! 6 am!! Hey Russell, you're on vacation, you can do whatever the fuck you want, go party, sleep, whatever. I'm up till 6 am doing a math problem! AND I'M PROUD OF IT. Especially because I figured it out. Ask me and I'll tell you what the answer is.
-So the next day, I was happy about it, thought it was cool. I was kinda tired, had to go to work. So I'm up in the stacks putting books away and it strikes me... I want to prepare a stand-up routine. Now don't get me wrong, I don't want to be a stand-up comic, this wasn't a career change or an epiphany or anything. Its like, just in case I ever have to do one... uh.. I'll be prepared. WHAT THE FUCK? I think it was really more that I wanted to know what would go into doing one, and whether I could do it. I think it was also feuled by those commercials on comedy central where they have some guy standing at a microphone being all like, "I don't know what to say" and then comedy central being all like, "stand-up is hard"
Yeah, so kitchen, if you're reading this, I know you read every bit of it, and know exactly what I mean.