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Okay. So first post since December 2006. People are suddenly updating their journals - is livejournal cool again?
Speaking of "cool", I've found it very hard to find ways to replace that word from my vocabulary (child of the 90s, I guess). I am rather fond of "ace" but it can feel rather forced at times. As for "awesome", well that is probably my most over-used word. I can't stop myself, damn it. What is the appropriate terminology nowadays? I'm showing my age.
Uni is causing me to stress, yet I'm still highly unmotivated. I only have about seven weeks to get my thesis written. My results are going to be non-significant, thus rendering all my work so far useless. Awesome.
I feel like I'm missing out on so much life-wise. I want to travel, particularly overseas but I'm never going to have the time. I fear that I'll jump straight into Masters, then into a full-time professional job. But on the other hand, my potential course is already six years, and I don't particularly want to drag it out any longer to take any time off. I can feel the burnout already, so can I handle another two years? I know it sounds clichéd but I want to be free and enjoy my youth for a while. I'm not entirely sure how I can get to where I want to go professionally, and have any kind of youthful shenanigans at the same time. I'm jealous of other people who have finished with shorter uni courses or aren't as tied down.
Work is still there, no matter how much I now hate it. I hated it before, but my hatred levels have increased exponentially as of late.
On a happier note, I am probably more comfortable socially than I have ever been. I talk to more people than I ever have before, and have larger circles of friends and acquaintances. At my most extreme, I used to go out of my way to avoid or make eye contact with people I vaguely knew because I feared having to strike up a conversation. It just seems so stupid now; and I could have been this content years ago had I not been so self-conscious.
Also in happy news: I am finally over my cold. Clear nasal passages. Get excited.
Speaking of "cool", I've found it very hard to find ways to replace that word from my vocabulary (child of the 90s, I guess). I am rather fond of "ace" but it can feel rather forced at times. As for "awesome", well that is probably my most over-used word. I can't stop myself, damn it. What is the appropriate terminology nowadays? I'm showing my age.
Uni is causing me to stress, yet I'm still highly unmotivated. I only have about seven weeks to get my thesis written. My results are going to be non-significant, thus rendering all my work so far useless. Awesome.
I feel like I'm missing out on so much life-wise. I want to travel, particularly overseas but I'm never going to have the time. I fear that I'll jump straight into Masters, then into a full-time professional job. But on the other hand, my potential course is already six years, and I don't particularly want to drag it out any longer to take any time off. I can feel the burnout already, so can I handle another two years? I know it sounds clichéd but I want to be free and enjoy my youth for a while. I'm not entirely sure how I can get to where I want to go professionally, and have any kind of youthful shenanigans at the same time. I'm jealous of other people who have finished with shorter uni courses or aren't as tied down.
Work is still there, no matter how much I now hate it. I hated it before, but my hatred levels have increased exponentially as of late.
On a happier note, I am probably more comfortable socially than I have ever been. I talk to more people than I ever have before, and have larger circles of friends and acquaintances. At my most extreme, I used to go out of my way to avoid or make eye contact with people I vaguely knew because I feared having to strike up a conversation. It just seems so stupid now; and I could have been this content years ago had I not been so self-conscious.
Also in happy news: I am finally over my cold. Clear nasal passages. Get excited.