Feb 12, 2008 21:15
I had an amazing experience the other day while sitting.
I was just sitting focusing on my breath, or at least trying to, and 'remember' to be in the moment. And a thought came into my head, a devilish thought at that. It was a song actually, a song that you would sing in preschool with a simple tune and melody. "The more I get to know you, to know you, to know you. The more I get to know you, the happier we'll be" (or something like that - I'm sure there are many variations to the song). But that's quite suiting isn't it? The one of the points of meditation is become more aware of who you are. And maybe, it was my ego (or my mind) throwing another distraction at me that would prevent myself from digging deeper, but even if it was, it's quite powerful. I remember feeling happy and joyful of that thought. The more I get to know myself the happier I'll be. It's so true. Even if it was my ego distracting me, I was in a moment of joy and I was of that moment without having to force myself to be mindful of my experience. I just.. was.
The more we get together, together, together.
The more we get together, the happier we'll be
The more I get to know you, to know you, to know you,
The more I get to know you, the happier we'll be.
Since then, I've found myself asking more questions of my thoughts and actions. Why did I just say that? Why am I making stories? What issue am I not confronting? No profound answers as of yet, but I suspect it's only a matter of time.
I'm excited to find out, or rather realize and understand, who/what I am.