Oct 09, 2008 14:49
I have fallen much.
No longer a retainer, I feel... empty. Being such to the Royal House of Renais has always implied a certain trust that they bestow upon the individual, unless said individual was elevated to such a position through political considerations. I am aware of my background, I do not enjoy the backing of politics when I obtained such a position.
On hindsight, a series of bad decisions might have led to my current predicament, and how I wish the Everlasting could strike me down. I question my survival, and it seems I have much to attone for, though it is possible that attonement would never be within my reach.
I must start somewhere, however, if only to lessen the sins I carry before I meet the Ultimate Judge.
The clear night sky... brings about melancholy. It will be a good companion for my patrol, perhaps.
It hurts, because I do not know how to fix this...broken part of myself...
((OOC: Those living in Sakuragi Apaarto, and like to look out of their windows after midnight, might see an armored figure patrolling the area during the nights.))