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so earlier this week i was talking with 
were_duck, and i said, hey, remember back in like 2005 how i was all UGH I HATE OPEN CANON I WILL AVOID OPEN CANON FOREVER I CANNOT HANDLE IT, THIS IS THE LAST TIME I SWEAR (re: sg:a).
and then how i said WELP, CONGRATULATIONS TO ME, AT LEAST IT'S NOT RPF, THAT IS THE UBER-OPEN CANON, THAT SHIT NEVER CLOSES, AT LEAST NOT UNTIL EVERYONE INVOLVED IS DEAD AND ALSO EVERYONE WHO HAS EVER MET THEM. I WILL NEVER DO THAT.
then in 2007 i fell into bandom (
skoosiepants' fault, as when i asked her for a primer, she... created a primer. ugh.). a problem that didn't really get acute until late 2009, when there was a terrible/wonderful pinch-hit crisis during podbang. (podmod created & edited that sucker as a team, at speed and under pressure, and we were victorious. and the raw, unedited file (which is 3x longer than the edited version, iirc) is still one of my favorite things in the entire world.)
anyway, then
were_duck and i laughed bitterly (the bitterness may have been only me, idk) at the way fate is supercruel. and also how i am a chump.
over the ensuing years i've been cagey about it for multiple reasons, but actually being cagey is getting more stressful than the reasons i was being cagey are. um. sorry if you talked to me about bandom/mcr (in person/in chat/on convention panels/in bars/on lj, dw, twitter/etc) and i pretended not to know what the fuck you were on about. repeatedly. for years. it isn't you, it's me.
anyway, that's the state of me, fannishly speaking. rpf is the worst, you guys. <3
originally posted at http://general-jinjur.dreamwidth.org/675249.html. possibly there is commentversation there? let's see:
were_duck, and i said, hey, remember back in like 2005 how i was all UGH I HATE OPEN CANON I WILL AVOID OPEN CANON FOREVER I CANNOT HANDLE IT, THIS IS THE LAST TIME I SWEAR (re: sg:a).
and then how i said WELP, CONGRATULATIONS TO ME, AT LEAST IT'S NOT RPF, THAT IS THE UBER-OPEN CANON, THAT SHIT NEVER CLOSES, AT LEAST NOT UNTIL EVERYONE INVOLVED IS DEAD AND ALSO EVERYONE WHO HAS EVER MET THEM. I WILL NEVER DO THAT.
then in 2007 i fell into bandom (
skoosiepants' fault, as when i asked her for a primer, she... created a primer. ugh.). a problem that didn't really get acute until late 2009, when there was a terrible/wonderful pinch-hit crisis during podbang. (podmod created & edited that sucker as a team, at speed and under pressure, and we were victorious. and the raw, unedited file (which is 3x longer than the edited version, iirc) is still one of my favorite things in the entire world.)
anyway, then
were_duck and i laughed bitterly (the bitterness may have been only me, idk) at the way fate is supercruel. and also how i am a chump.
over the ensuing years i've been cagey about it for multiple reasons, but actually being cagey is getting more stressful than the reasons i was being cagey are. um. sorry if you talked to me about bandom/mcr (in person/in chat/on convention panels/in bars/on lj, dw, twitter/etc) and i pretended not to know what the fuck you were on about. repeatedly. for years. it isn't you, it's me.
anyway, that's the state of me, fannishly speaking. rpf is the worst, you guys. <3
originally posted at http://general-jinjur.dreamwidth.org/675249.html. possibly there is commentversation there? let's see: