Shld I or shld not ?

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It was tiring. i m worn out.
First round made me feel great !
I nva been so proud of myself and i was overwhelmed !
LOVED myself more at that moment.
Second round got me nervous again !
It was so easy, I cld have done it ...
BUT prob lies with me again...
I hated myself for tat moment.
I felt ugly.
I SRSLY nid a major construction to myself
Hated myself again.

Shld i try again - w.o the aid of beginner's luck ?

Oh well..... im still tired...

my weekends were filled with flowing of boozes, zero slp and loud music till dawn
and i witnessed the love b/w them... how sweet n where's mine?