strange entry.
it has been decided that every week i will think of at least one of my character traits that i should change. These traits are not necessarily bad, possibly just detrimental to how i get on with other people.
i need to change my misanthropy before it kills me.
today's trait is......being overly judgemental.
i am extremely judgemental, especially of people who are new to me and i judge a lot on first impressions. this is something that probably holds me back from a lot of potentially good people and experiences, but on the flipside most likely protects me too.
My first impressions usually turn out to be right (or at least, i don't allow myself the opportunity to prove them wrong) so this is a difficult step to take.
i'm all about self-improvement through pretty rigorous introspection. Something which can be isolating, but i think i have the hang of it now after years of worryingly pretentious existential depression. i don't want to be left behind. i think i alienate a lot of people and it strikes me that this is not a good thing to do if you want to get on in life.
Maybe when i've achieved a modicum of success i can afford myself the luxury of being judgemental and misanthropic from behind my smoky velvet screen, but for now all it's doing is damaging me, my friendships, and corroding myself from the inside out, both mentally and physically.
i will make myself into King Kong.
Also: don't mindlessly follow icons! Be yourself and act accordingly! Copying celebrities and artists is nothing special!
Do something new and unique to you. Don't just do what's 'cool' because of Mick Jagger, or Dali, or William Burroughs, or whoever.
agh, do what you want. i'll be me, you can be them.
i'll win.
i need to change my misanthropy before it kills me.
today's trait is......being overly judgemental.
i am extremely judgemental, especially of people who are new to me and i judge a lot on first impressions. this is something that probably holds me back from a lot of potentially good people and experiences, but on the flipside most likely protects me too.
My first impressions usually turn out to be right (or at least, i don't allow myself the opportunity to prove them wrong) so this is a difficult step to take.
i'm all about self-improvement through pretty rigorous introspection. Something which can be isolating, but i think i have the hang of it now after years of worryingly pretentious existential depression. i don't want to be left behind. i think i alienate a lot of people and it strikes me that this is not a good thing to do if you want to get on in life.
Maybe when i've achieved a modicum of success i can afford myself the luxury of being judgemental and misanthropic from behind my smoky velvet screen, but for now all it's doing is damaging me, my friendships, and corroding myself from the inside out, both mentally and physically.
i will make myself into King Kong.
Also: don't mindlessly follow icons! Be yourself and act accordingly! Copying celebrities and artists is nothing special!
Do something new and unique to you. Don't just do what's 'cool' because of Mick Jagger, or Dali, or William Burroughs, or whoever.
agh, do what you want. i'll be me, you can be them.
i'll win.