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I'm worried about getting old.
I hate looking at my parents and thinking I could end up like them.
I can tell they're miserable.
They both hate what they do for a living.
And They have these little less-than par lives.
Which most Americans have.
But I don't want to end up like that.
I don't want to get married to someone who in 15 years will hate everything they stand for.
I don't want to have kids, so they can tie me down and suck the life out of me
And Spend my money
And Complain about how I embarrass them
And Scream and cry and shit everywhere.
Then Leave me in some fucking Nursing home to die.
My Mum always says
"Oh, Gen I can't wait till you have kids, and I can dress them and babysit them and..."
I've been raised to think a family is the only thing to make your life worth while.
And I'm not so sure I like the idea of doing something I don't think will make me even slightly happy.
I don't want to be every average middle class, republican, stay at home mom, with 4 kids, and some sort of shitty sedan.
I Know it sounds selfish to not want kids or a husband,
But I want to do what I need to do to be happy before I work on anyone elses happiness.
My parents gave up a lot for me and my brother
And Believe me I'm thankful.
And I know ever kid says
"No, No, I wont be like my parents, I refuse to end up like that."
But most people never actually do anything about it.
Most people end up just like their parents.
I might end up just like my mum
Which isn't so bad.
I just don't want to be miserable like her.
All I mean is
I don't want to be miserable.
I don't want to be 40 years old and shriveled up beyond repair.
I hate looking at my parents and thinking I could end up like them.
I can tell they're miserable.
They both hate what they do for a living.
And They have these little less-than par lives.
Which most Americans have.
But I don't want to end up like that.
I don't want to get married to someone who in 15 years will hate everything they stand for.
I don't want to have kids, so they can tie me down and suck the life out of me
And Spend my money
And Complain about how I embarrass them
And Scream and cry and shit everywhere.
Then Leave me in some fucking Nursing home to die.
My Mum always says
"Oh, Gen I can't wait till you have kids, and I can dress them and babysit them and..."
I've been raised to think a family is the only thing to make your life worth while.
And I'm not so sure I like the idea of doing something I don't think will make me even slightly happy.
I don't want to be every average middle class, republican, stay at home mom, with 4 kids, and some sort of shitty sedan.
I Know it sounds selfish to not want kids or a husband,
But I want to do what I need to do to be happy before I work on anyone elses happiness.
My parents gave up a lot for me and my brother
And Believe me I'm thankful.
And I know ever kid says
"No, No, I wont be like my parents, I refuse to end up like that."
But most people never actually do anything about it.
Most people end up just like their parents.
I might end up just like my mum
Which isn't so bad.
I just don't want to be miserable like her.
All I mean is
I don't want to be miserable.
I don't want to be 40 years old and shriveled up beyond repair.