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another step toward freedom : blocking brandon from everything, all my profiles, e-mail addresses etc.
talked to joe today for a long time. i felt like he was trying to convince me to trust him or something, i don't know, it felt weird. i was in a bad mood to begin with because i'll beat up from soccer today. me made me cry but i didn't tell him. i miss him alot. i think i could be with him. but our interests have changed, we've both changed. i'm more vain than i ever was, i'm shallow at times, i like to dress and act like a slut (only way to get the boys anymore, yeah, i admit it, i'm living up to the reputation of town slut). when he and i fight, we fight for good, like we'll never talk to each other again. i guess i'm still pissed he got all wrapped up in annette. i think i could trust him. but, we're rarely in contact, and i'm a freak about knowing where and who my significant others, i have serious trust issues. but we've like had that weird relationship thing forever where we've always kinda loved each other. god i'm so confused.
now i'm online, cam whoring it up, telling people they can't have my lollies because i'm the lollie queen, fighting over whose teddy is better, mine or james'.
i want to go to sleep but i want to stay up and talk to friends, and if i nap now, i won't sleep later.
fuck me sideways?!
why does life have to be so confusing and why right now?
grr. i just want to be all normal and stuff...!
or do i?
joe, i mish you. i'm sorry i didn't call back in time.
fluff you all!!
-error
talked to joe today for a long time. i felt like he was trying to convince me to trust him or something, i don't know, it felt weird. i was in a bad mood to begin with because i'll beat up from soccer today. me made me cry but i didn't tell him. i miss him alot. i think i could be with him. but our interests have changed, we've both changed. i'm more vain than i ever was, i'm shallow at times, i like to dress and act like a slut (only way to get the boys anymore, yeah, i admit it, i'm living up to the reputation of town slut). when he and i fight, we fight for good, like we'll never talk to each other again. i guess i'm still pissed he got all wrapped up in annette. i think i could trust him. but, we're rarely in contact, and i'm a freak about knowing where and who my significant others, i have serious trust issues. but we've like had that weird relationship thing forever where we've always kinda loved each other. god i'm so confused.
now i'm online, cam whoring it up, telling people they can't have my lollies because i'm the lollie queen, fighting over whose teddy is better, mine or james'.
i want to go to sleep but i want to stay up and talk to friends, and if i nap now, i won't sleep later.
fuck me sideways?!
why does life have to be so confusing and why right now?
grr. i just want to be all normal and stuff...!
or do i?
joe, i mish you. i'm sorry i didn't call back in time.
fluff you all!!
-error