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Okay, well I'm sort of back guys...
the last two weeks have sucked, living at my dads is like being lost in the wilderness and lost from civilization...no computer, no tv, no stereo...i feel like i should be luck to have electricity and running water. the first week was awful as brandon and i had a huge blow out, ends up i almost lost my job but he always had his, the sewing machine IP gave me was broken, which delayed my work on the costumes further and now i'm pretty sure that unless i get some serious help i won't have brandon's costume done in time (sorry hun, the pattern is really hard, but i'll get it done, and the jedi stuff, and your cloak....at some point lol). during the first week i also wasted my entire paycheck, shopping for things that (i hope brandon will only see? did i just say that?) there were some punctuated visits with mark, which ended up okay i guess (Bryan...yer band is awesome, i believe you've found something suited to you and your talent, may you be successful) lots of crying because i felt so empty and lost from everything, like i was naked, no contact with my friends did me in, i've caved to painkillers in extremes from time to time, really trying to work down off of it again...but i can't sleep anymore *sigh*...to keep myself busy i borrowed some books from the local library...i've read them all, including an Anita Blake novel brandon (you have very good taste in books) mostly i've been sleeping a lot to kill the extra time, it doesn't help as then i'm up all night and tired at work the next morning (been putting in 40 hours a week when i can) and next week is dominating my time, tomorrow (monday) my cousin stephanie (a 25yr old version of me, so i've been told) is takin my sister and my cousin holly and i school shopping, god only knows where (i pray for royal oak) i do know we're going to some nifty vintage shop, so that makes me uber happy. tuesday is my appointment for my senior pictures, wednesday i have registration (ick) and hopefully by next monday i'll be able to go purchase my new car (lauren, i copied you, your avenger kicks ass) as i get paid next friday (should be a very nice check) the week after that is the 16th, IP's big show that's weighing on me (sewing is suicide) that saturday is woodward (brandon if you're free that night from work for a bit, i'd realllllllly like to take you, i know you don't know much about cars, but i know you love to oogle them lol) okay, well, both my cousins are here, and my sister, i really need to go socialize and make sure i get some much needed chinese for dinner.
everyone...i really miss you guys, i don't know when i'll be able to get online next, but please keep in touch? the silence and lonliness at my dad's is really getting to my head...
248 701 5843
please call...
and to those who know...i love you, i miss you, i hope you come back soon...i'm glad we're friends, sad that i missed this with you before everything else, i hope you're happy too...don't be afraid to call okay?
goodbye for another dreadful overly extended amount of time...
the last two weeks have sucked, living at my dads is like being lost in the wilderness and lost from civilization...no computer, no tv, no stereo...i feel like i should be luck to have electricity and running water. the first week was awful as brandon and i had a huge blow out, ends up i almost lost my job but he always had his, the sewing machine IP gave me was broken, which delayed my work on the costumes further and now i'm pretty sure that unless i get some serious help i won't have brandon's costume done in time (sorry hun, the pattern is really hard, but i'll get it done, and the jedi stuff, and your cloak....at some point lol). during the first week i also wasted my entire paycheck, shopping for things that (i hope brandon will only see? did i just say that?) there were some punctuated visits with mark, which ended up okay i guess (Bryan...yer band is awesome, i believe you've found something suited to you and your talent, may you be successful) lots of crying because i felt so empty and lost from everything, like i was naked, no contact with my friends did me in, i've caved to painkillers in extremes from time to time, really trying to work down off of it again...but i can't sleep anymore *sigh*...to keep myself busy i borrowed some books from the local library...i've read them all, including an Anita Blake novel brandon (you have very good taste in books) mostly i've been sleeping a lot to kill the extra time, it doesn't help as then i'm up all night and tired at work the next morning (been putting in 40 hours a week when i can) and next week is dominating my time, tomorrow (monday) my cousin stephanie (a 25yr old version of me, so i've been told) is takin my sister and my cousin holly and i school shopping, god only knows where (i pray for royal oak) i do know we're going to some nifty vintage shop, so that makes me uber happy. tuesday is my appointment for my senior pictures, wednesday i have registration (ick) and hopefully by next monday i'll be able to go purchase my new car (lauren, i copied you, your avenger kicks ass) as i get paid next friday (should be a very nice check) the week after that is the 16th, IP's big show that's weighing on me (sewing is suicide) that saturday is woodward (brandon if you're free that night from work for a bit, i'd realllllllly like to take you, i know you don't know much about cars, but i know you love to oogle them lol) okay, well, both my cousins are here, and my sister, i really need to go socialize and make sure i get some much needed chinese for dinner.
everyone...i really miss you guys, i don't know when i'll be able to get online next, but please keep in touch? the silence and lonliness at my dad's is really getting to my head...
248 701 5843
please call...
and to those who know...i love you, i miss you, i hope you come back soon...i'm glad we're friends, sad that i missed this with you before everything else, i hope you're happy too...don't be afraid to call okay?
goodbye for another dreadful overly extended amount of time...