I wrote this in an email to a friend the other day:
"I feel for so long people got an "edited" version of me because I wanted them to love me, when really they were loving this projection I was consciously giving to them all polished up on a silver platter. Which is in a very real way, an illusion. And scary."
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Ormay )
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Damn, I would hate to think that I don't even know you, Sesh. When I have had the opportunity to look into your eyes, I have loved the person I saw there. Maybe my perceptions were filled with illusions... but I didn't think so then, and I don't want to think so now. Are you really so different, or is it that you don't really know what we have seen? I am confused.
I don't necessarily need an explanation, just telling you how I feel.
Love,
Lena
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Thank you always for your thoughts. You can take up soapbox anytime.
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Glad to see that Pluto transit square your Sun is actually active, I was beginning to wonder.
The thing is Sesh, presenting the "polished" image is you. Do you really think you can "change?" OR is this just another image?
You'd make a great politician, in many ways, presenting this "I care for the people Neptune in Sag" while all the time really caring about all the perks and kick backs that authority and position would give you.
Vote for Sesh! YOu know it makes sense (to her at least)
Makes me smile how many COTGers had very similar aspects in their chart. YOu and A both with Sun Square Neptune, you and Ix with Saturn in the 10th house. Maya and Gim with Sun Square Pluto, Lena and I with Mars Pluto conjunction. Gim and Lena with Mars in Leo etc. In many ways I believe it was amazing that we all got to see some of the most "irratating" or "challenging" things about others in our own charts. Great Mirrors we all made.
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But then, until you've hit your Saturn Return, you really have not learnt all the lessons your chart has to teach you, so untill then you really aren't "totally aware" of who you are.
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