Head. Desk. Repeat.
I feel slightly isolated from the rest of the world. Maybe it's being in Cali. Maybe it's the lack of close friends here. Maybe it's just me.
That said, I find it slightly disconcerting, that I now know a second couple who only after 6-7 months of dating, is engaged. Really? Seriously? Is there something in the water in Cali? And if so, why am I not drinking it? It's funny, one minute, I'm all about marriage and the next, I like being pseduo-single. And by that, I mean, while I am still dating Raj, I see so little of him, that it's almost like I'm not dating anyone. And to be honest, I'm ok with it, because it gives me "me" time. And I like not having to consider someone else's schedule and being wholly selfish in planning my weeknights and most weekends. It's the freedom of being single with occasional benefits of being in a relationship. And yes, if it sounds like I'm trying to convince myself of this, maybe I am, a little.
Part of the reason I can say this though, is because my new co-workers are women in their mid-30's who are either single or married without kids and don't seem to be concerned about having their own biological children after the age of 35. The lesson to take away from this is, their focus was about being in love. Perhaps that's what mine should be.
That said, I find it slightly disconcerting, that I now know a second couple who only after 6-7 months of dating, is engaged. Really? Seriously? Is there something in the water in Cali? And if so, why am I not drinking it? It's funny, one minute, I'm all about marriage and the next, I like being pseduo-single. And by that, I mean, while I am still dating Raj, I see so little of him, that it's almost like I'm not dating anyone. And to be honest, I'm ok with it, because it gives me "me" time. And I like not having to consider someone else's schedule and being wholly selfish in planning my weeknights and most weekends. It's the freedom of being single with occasional benefits of being in a relationship. And yes, if it sounds like I'm trying to convince myself of this, maybe I am, a little.
Part of the reason I can say this though, is because my new co-workers are women in their mid-30's who are either single or married without kids and don't seem to be concerned about having their own biological children after the age of 35. The lesson to take away from this is, their focus was about being in love. Perhaps that's what mine should be.