back to school
So, here I am in my fourth year in college still being the loner. it's wierd because I know people that come here, but with a three hour break I'd still rather spend most of it by myself.
I am a little stressed being I am working 30 hrs and week and going to school full-time. James says everything will be ok, but he doesn't know everything about me yet. Like how emotionally unstable I can be - especially under stressful circumstances.
I really like James. Whether it is love or not, I am not sure. It's like I want to say it, but I can't. He can't either which is good because I wouldn't want him to say something I couldn't return. Right now we just say "ditto." It's scary having someone in my life that I truly care for and do not want to hurt. I want to keep him in my life, and if that means repressing my usual routine of pushing people away I am all for it. It's amazing to want someone to know me and for me to want to know them just as much.
Yeah I also really need a new icon. Of course since I have this really bad habit of not updating but once every six months, I never usually get around to making any more. Maybe I should just do like everyone else and steal a couple. :P. Anyway, I hope to stop neglecting my journal as much now that I will have three hour breaks twice a week and I sure as hell don't want to drive home and then drive back everyday, although that might end up being the case.
ta ta for me.
I am a little stressed being I am working 30 hrs and week and going to school full-time. James says everything will be ok, but he doesn't know everything about me yet. Like how emotionally unstable I can be - especially under stressful circumstances.
I really like James. Whether it is love or not, I am not sure. It's like I want to say it, but I can't. He can't either which is good because I wouldn't want him to say something I couldn't return. Right now we just say "ditto." It's scary having someone in my life that I truly care for and do not want to hurt. I want to keep him in my life, and if that means repressing my usual routine of pushing people away I am all for it. It's amazing to want someone to know me and for me to want to know them just as much.
Yeah I also really need a new icon. Of course since I have this really bad habit of not updating but once every six months, I never usually get around to making any more. Maybe I should just do like everyone else and steal a couple. :P. Anyway, I hope to stop neglecting my journal as much now that I will have three hour breaks twice a week and I sure as hell don't want to drive home and then drive back everyday, although that might end up being the case.
ta ta for me.