Confused

[geminibabyknq]

Hey guyz... Well a lot has happened since i last wrote! First off me and Orlando are over and i still have a lot of feelings for him. The other day i found that he kissed another girl and was gonna start going out with her after Christmas vacation and i almost started crying!!! Well I asked him about it on Tuesday and he told me that he did kiss the girl but he doesnt want 2 have a girlfriend for awhile!! God when he told me that i had 2 go inside cause i almost broke down! I know i shouldnt be crying over a guy but i dunno i miss him! But i guess its 2 late now! U know that saying that says " no man is worth ur tears and the one that is wont make u cry?" Well i dont understand how some people can live by that b/c when u find some who u care about a lot it kinda doesnt always work like that!I dunno i sometimes feel like i should tell him how i feel but i dont think it will make a difference! I mean dang if he's already kissed another girl doesnt that imply that he's gotten over me?
Well the next thing is that my Christmas wasnt really that great but lets just say that i got one of the worst surprises that a kid could ever get and i really have no one i can talk 2 about it but just like all the other crap going on ill get over it!
Sorry im complaining so much this is the only way 2 get it off my chest so yeah. I guess ill stop now. God Bless!