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Been feeling like Im in a twisted dream
for a while now
don't know exactly what of the many things that are going on in my life and that had happened
is that is making me feel so irritable, so impatient, so frustrated, sad, unfocused, so so so......
Im not like that by nature,
used to be that person who looks at the bright side to everything, made the best out of any situation, sense of humor, and had compassion......
lately I find my self very bitter and jaded, I just want to run to a foreign place, where nobody knows me, where I have no responsability, no daily stress, no pressure, no bull shit!
I guess I just need a break from being a grown adult......
more than anything......
I don't like feeling un appriciated or unloved by the one I love..... who claims to love me and acts like he despises me......at times...... when all I ever do is help and be there for him no matter what... even when Im getting insulted.....
so he's moved out.... I really hope that helps.....
I am truly happy for him and hope the best for him....
there should be a good outcome from this :)
yeah yeah I know I Sound like a naggy bitch, but another thing that probably has gotten me all sad and pissed is the fact that Im stuck and feel trapped in this job, the old catch 22, I can't leave it though, cuz is very stable, I have my set schedule and a decent pay, but Geez do I despise the women that shop here! they are you're typical L.A. rich snobs.... demanding, they want evetyhing now now now, nit picky and very particular, the kind of breed I can't stand...... so hard to smile or joke with them, so I just get very sarcastic and kind of make fun of them in my head, lol (the only thing that makes me laugh)even the people whoe work around here are very anoying...... I been here for 6 months and so ready to get out of here...... I am dying to go to school, and get away from LA LA land for a while, but there's a few things I gotta wait on for that to happen..... I really hope I go to school next year..... and that I can see my sister and her offspring soon too :) I miss them.....
again I really feel like Im wasting my time here, on hold...... argh!!!!!
I just want to do what I love MUSIC!!!! record, be in the studio.....!!!
but you gotta do what you gotta do I guess it could be worse and I really should be grateful for what I have at the moment... oh well! what can you do?
try to keep makin the best of it..
bleh bleh
for a while now
don't know exactly what of the many things that are going on in my life and that had happened
is that is making me feel so irritable, so impatient, so frustrated, sad, unfocused, so so so......
Im not like that by nature,
used to be that person who looks at the bright side to everything, made the best out of any situation, sense of humor, and had compassion......
lately I find my self very bitter and jaded, I just want to run to a foreign place, where nobody knows me, where I have no responsability, no daily stress, no pressure, no bull shit!
I guess I just need a break from being a grown adult......
more than anything......
I don't like feeling un appriciated or unloved by the one I love..... who claims to love me and acts like he despises me......at times...... when all I ever do is help and be there for him no matter what... even when Im getting insulted.....
so he's moved out.... I really hope that helps.....
I am truly happy for him and hope the best for him....
there should be a good outcome from this :)
yeah yeah I know I Sound like a naggy bitch, but another thing that probably has gotten me all sad and pissed is the fact that Im stuck and feel trapped in this job, the old catch 22, I can't leave it though, cuz is very stable, I have my set schedule and a decent pay, but Geez do I despise the women that shop here! they are you're typical L.A. rich snobs.... demanding, they want evetyhing now now now, nit picky and very particular, the kind of breed I can't stand...... so hard to smile or joke with them, so I just get very sarcastic and kind of make fun of them in my head, lol (the only thing that makes me laugh)even the people whoe work around here are very anoying...... I been here for 6 months and so ready to get out of here...... I am dying to go to school, and get away from LA LA land for a while, but there's a few things I gotta wait on for that to happen..... I really hope I go to school next year..... and that I can see my sister and her offspring soon too :) I miss them.....
again I really feel like Im wasting my time here, on hold...... argh!!!!!
I just want to do what I love MUSIC!!!! record, be in the studio.....!!!
but you gotta do what you gotta do I guess it could be worse and I really should be grateful for what I have at the moment... oh well! what can you do?
try to keep makin the best of it..
bleh bleh