a million different people
Somedays I feel like it's hard to keep track of myself. I carry wardrobe changes like some kind of celebrity or super hero... yet it's nothing quite so glamorous. I do a little spin in the morning as ask Brian if any of my tattoos are "hanging out." Because sometimes I don't even know anymore.
I walk to work in flip flops, but change into heels. When I put them on, as I do everyday things, I wonder, "Is this how tall people feel?" Though even with these heels, I'm only 5'3"... Still, having to bend down to get the paper bags or not having to reach up to get my chips off of the fridge in the break room... makes me feel tall. I feel more confident in my heels. I walk with my back straight, taking long, intentional steps.
Sometimes when I blow my nose in the bathroom, I forget to put my septum ring back up. I will walk all the way though the lobby with it down before noticing. Then I always wonder if anyone saw or noticed...
Sometimes, I wonder if people at work think I'm hiding something... what with these long sleeve shirts all the time. I wonder if they ever realize they've never seen my arms, or if they have no idea they've never seen them. And if they do think I'm hiding something, I wonder what they think I'm hiding. Today, I've been pulling the front of my shirt up over and over trying to keep my neckline above my collarbone, I can never tell what's showing sometimes...
Getting out of work every day is like... sweet sweet freedom. I rip off my long sleeve shirt and walk proudly down 5th street in the sun, my arms vibrant. Of course, this leads to awkward situations like when I ran into Lee the other week lol.
Sometimes I forget who I'm supposed to be where... I keep my setpum ring up around some of Brian's family, but not all of them. I finally gave up on trying to shelter my mom from all the tattoos, though she won't go out with me if my septum ring is down. She saw my leg tattoos for the first time a few months back and seemed fairly shocked.
Sometimes when I shop at certain stores, I flip up my septum ring or wear a sweatshirt, just because I don't like to be treated differently from everyone else.
It's a strange life I live haha...
Also, I've recently decided if you live in the UK or somewhere on the opposite site of the world from me, you live in the future. Because sometimes it's tomorrow there while it's still today here. And right now you're all eating dinner while I'm having a before lunch snack. :)
I walk to work in flip flops, but change into heels. When I put them on, as I do everyday things, I wonder, "Is this how tall people feel?" Though even with these heels, I'm only 5'3"... Still, having to bend down to get the paper bags or not having to reach up to get my chips off of the fridge in the break room... makes me feel tall. I feel more confident in my heels. I walk with my back straight, taking long, intentional steps.
Sometimes when I blow my nose in the bathroom, I forget to put my septum ring back up. I will walk all the way though the lobby with it down before noticing. Then I always wonder if anyone saw or noticed...
Sometimes, I wonder if people at work think I'm hiding something... what with these long sleeve shirts all the time. I wonder if they ever realize they've never seen my arms, or if they have no idea they've never seen them. And if they do think I'm hiding something, I wonder what they think I'm hiding. Today, I've been pulling the front of my shirt up over and over trying to keep my neckline above my collarbone, I can never tell what's showing sometimes...
Getting out of work every day is like... sweet sweet freedom. I rip off my long sleeve shirt and walk proudly down 5th street in the sun, my arms vibrant. Of course, this leads to awkward situations like when I ran into Lee the other week lol.
Sometimes I forget who I'm supposed to be where... I keep my setpum ring up around some of Brian's family, but not all of them. I finally gave up on trying to shelter my mom from all the tattoos, though she won't go out with me if my septum ring is down. She saw my leg tattoos for the first time a few months back and seemed fairly shocked.
Sometimes when I shop at certain stores, I flip up my septum ring or wear a sweatshirt, just because I don't like to be treated differently from everyone else.
It's a strange life I live haha...
Also, I've recently decided if you live in the UK or somewhere on the opposite site of the world from me, you live in the future. Because sometimes it's tomorrow there while it's still today here. And right now you're all eating dinner while I'm having a before lunch snack. :)