good times
jolted awake at 8.45AM, thinking tt I might have missed my tuition. but thank God for my mummy who kicks a fuss when my mobile gets tired of snoozing. doudou made an effort to finish all the work I spammed her yest and I am impressed. I hope she's learned smth this hols. speaking of which, the hols are cmg to an end, soon. its been a busy long hol and I'm still enjoying myself, thus far. (:
although plans to travel and get away from this tiny island kinda flopped, I managed to find friends and places to escape to. singapore isnt all tt small to hide in, afterall. (:
today, a few uni friends and I went on a foodhunt around singapore. thank God for a friend who drove us around! it really made all the difference. (: my stomach's satisfied and I'm feeling a tad better since a week ago. maybe I am indulging. but good food does lift one's spirits. the company of friends and the joy they bring - priceless. (:
home now, I feel at ease. I still say my night prayers. I still wanna be close to Jesus but I'm afraid. very afraid. maybe I need help. but its gotta come in a gentler way than this. I hope it does. I dont wanna overthink anything, so I'm gonna take as long as I need. to all who've listened, thank YOU. to all who've spoken words of truth tt hurt me, and broke me down... you're so fucking brave la. deep down in my tiny little heart, I will nvr forget... and I'll send a word for you to Jesus, if I die first (oh my, so fatalistic).
here's smth I picked up at fringe:
"She closed her eyes. Opened them, closed them. She could end this world or allow it. This was a moment when a believer, a thoughtful believer, would think of God's work, and how good it was. The waves were perfect to the right and perfect to the left,"
- Dave Eggers (How We Are Hungry)
I think I know, just what he's talking about.
although plans to travel and get away from this tiny island kinda flopped, I managed to find friends and places to escape to. singapore isnt all tt small to hide in, afterall. (:
today, a few uni friends and I went on a foodhunt around singapore. thank God for a friend who drove us around! it really made all the difference. (: my stomach's satisfied and I'm feeling a tad better since a week ago. maybe I am indulging. but good food does lift one's spirits. the company of friends and the joy they bring - priceless. (:
home now, I feel at ease. I still say my night prayers. I still wanna be close to Jesus but I'm afraid. very afraid. maybe I need help. but its gotta come in a gentler way than this. I hope it does. I dont wanna overthink anything, so I'm gonna take as long as I need. to all who've listened, thank YOU. to all who've spoken words of truth tt hurt me, and broke me down... you're so fucking brave la. deep down in my tiny little heart, I will nvr forget... and I'll send a word for you to Jesus, if I die first (oh my, so fatalistic).
here's smth I picked up at fringe:
"She closed her eyes. Opened them, closed them. She could end this world or allow it. This was a moment when a believer, a thoughtful believer, would think of God's work, and how good it was. The waves were perfect to the right and perfect to the left,"
- Dave Eggers (How We Are Hungry)
I think I know, just what he's talking about.